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Member Bio & Journals / Jenga's bio (UPDATED 8/15/15)
« on: May 16, 2015, 11:03:38 pm »~currently revising (for the love of god)~
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i don't feel really well right now.
like, really really bad.
i may not be active at all like i usually am because of how much im suffering mentally.
i may lurk because the only place i feel safe in is my room
im possibly getting help sooner or later
and this may last for like a day, week, or whatever the hell i feel like
but if you don't see me on for like a month or so i probably passed away.
im so so sorry for all the bad things ive done.
like, really really bad.
i may not be active at all like i usually am because of how much im suffering mentally.
i may lurk because the only place i feel safe in is my room
im possibly getting help sooner or later
and this may last for like a day, week, or whatever the hell i feel like
but if you don't see me on for like a month or so i probably passed away.
im so so sorry for all the bad things ive done.
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Media / I would like to share something with you guys
« on: February 08, 2015, 03:38:03 am »
I found a song recently, and I can say it could be one of the best songs I have ever listened to. The artist, Modest Mouse, released the single just a few weeks ago for their album that is in fact scheduled to be released on my birthday (they haven't released a studio album since 2007, for your information). I'm looking forward to pre-ordering it or at least buying it when it's released. Admittedly, Modest Mouse is my most favorite band besides Panic! At The Disco, even though their genres are pretty far apart. There's a great reason why I love the band so much.
Here's the song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UW5Or7bIVJk
I thought I would share it with you guys because it is about wildlife. It's also very emotional moving if you think about the lyrics being said. Issac Brock (the guy who mainly writes and sings the songs for the band) is said to be an amazing songwriter, and I wholeheartedly believe that. I can say this is one of the best songs he has written and created as far as I know.
I hope you can love this song and music video as much as I do. This needs to be shared.
Here's the song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UW5Or7bIVJk
I thought I would share it with you guys because it is about wildlife. It's also very emotional moving if you think about the lyrics being said. Issac Brock (the guy who mainly writes and sings the songs for the band) is said to be an amazing songwriter, and I wholeheartedly believe that. I can say this is one of the best songs he has written and created as far as I know.
I hope you can love this song and music video as much as I do. This needs to be shared.
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Discussion Board / Your thoughts/feelings about the upcoming new year?
« on: December 31, 2014, 05:23:23 am »
The year is going to change in almost a day. A new year. 2015. Wow. This year went by fast, did it?
I always was pretty excited for the new year. Those countdowns they did on the news channels always excited me. You just got to watch them count down the seconds to the new year. Call me strange, but I'm fascinated to witness the recognition of the last seconds of the old year. Like, just a few seconds before a new year starts! A new year to experience! A new year to witness the new things that will be possibly coming within the new year! May it be a new technological device, a new discovery in astronomy or biology, a new panda cub or elephant calf born in the San Diego Zoo, possibly even an attempt to improve yourself, maybe in art, school, or even your own life.
To be honest, I have been kinda scared of the new possible things that will be coming in the new year. I mean, yeah, new things. New things to experience. I've been interested in newly discovered technology or a newly discovered astronomic or biological things. I like to see the human race improve in what we created and in what we study or look forward into. But what I'm scared of is a possible something that will come up and change our way of living or my way of thought. I'm not a person for sudden change. What if my temperament worsens, or the change took a turn for the worst for the community? idk, this may be just all in my head. It's a problem of mine, I often make things harder for myself because I think of all of the worst possibilities. I probably watched too much disaster movies for my sensitive mind to handle.
As for this old year, 2014, well, it was.... stressful. I started to realize what people thought of me, what people really think of me as a human being. I have been through a bunch of toxic people that have controlled my life in one of the worst ways I can think of. Those people really had permanently damaged my emotional wall, making it unstable. I just witnessed another abandonment by a so-called "friend" I tried to make at the beginning of the school year. Being in high school means some big stuff, and I have to make friends in order to be accepted in the bare minimum. Without friends, I know people will still think of me as some "gross loner" like my age group thought since a few years back, and I have been trying so hard to avoid that. So hard, that I let horrible people take control of my life and feelings, thus completely destroying me and making me more anxious and paranoid as before. Ugh, I can't even hold friendships now without getting frustrated and paranoid and later pushing them away. People don't like me because of my struggles. I guess I just have to live with it; go through the pressure people have gave me and will give me in the future. It's difficult to overcome how sensitive I can be, but I just go along, doing my schoolwork like I need to, getting or making my daily needs, stuff like that. It gets boring and lonesome after awhile, but it's what I have to live with for now and possibly my whole life. Overall, 2014 has been a year when I learned about some things that affected my mind in some way.
I really hope my 2015 would be my year that my effort of improving my social life would actually become effective, but I have been trying for a few years and idk if it will take some more or the next year will be it.
Oh rats, this turned into some emo-sounding vent. I'm sorry about that. tbh I don't have anywhere else that I feel conformable letting my frustrations out, and this kinda was thrown up as I typed this. Well, you can discuss something about your year and what you believe is going to happen in the new year. Just, don't try not to throw a huge pity party or explain the depressing things in your life too personally or in too much detail. I don't want to see the overall joyfull, lax community all upset, thus creating some tension.
If this needs some locking, you can do so.
I always was pretty excited for the new year. Those countdowns they did on the news channels always excited me. You just got to watch them count down the seconds to the new year. Call me strange, but I'm fascinated to witness the recognition of the last seconds of the old year. Like, just a few seconds before a new year starts! A new year to experience! A new year to witness the new things that will be possibly coming within the new year! May it be a new technological device, a new discovery in astronomy or biology, a new panda cub or elephant calf born in the San Diego Zoo, possibly even an attempt to improve yourself, maybe in art, school, or even your own life.
To be honest, I have been kinda scared of the new possible things that will be coming in the new year. I mean, yeah, new things. New things to experience. I've been interested in newly discovered technology or a newly discovered astronomic or biological things. I like to see the human race improve in what we created and in what we study or look forward into. But what I'm scared of is a possible something that will come up and change our way of living or my way of thought. I'm not a person for sudden change. What if my temperament worsens, or the change took a turn for the worst for the community? idk, this may be just all in my head. It's a problem of mine, I often make things harder for myself because I think of all of the worst possibilities. I probably watched too much disaster movies for my sensitive mind to handle.
As for this old year, 2014, well, it was.... stressful. I started to realize what people thought of me, what people really think of me as a human being. I have been through a bunch of toxic people that have controlled my life in one of the worst ways I can think of. Those people really had permanently damaged my emotional wall, making it unstable. I just witnessed another abandonment by a so-called "friend" I tried to make at the beginning of the school year. Being in high school means some big stuff, and I have to make friends in order to be accepted in the bare minimum. Without friends, I know people will still think of me as some "gross loner" like my age group thought since a few years back, and I have been trying so hard to avoid that. So hard, that I let horrible people take control of my life and feelings, thus completely destroying me and making me more anxious and paranoid as before. Ugh, I can't even hold friendships now without getting frustrated and paranoid and later pushing them away. People don't like me because of my struggles. I guess I just have to live with it; go through the pressure people have gave me and will give me in the future. It's difficult to overcome how sensitive I can be, but I just go along, doing my schoolwork like I need to, getting or making my daily needs, stuff like that. It gets boring and lonesome after awhile, but it's what I have to live with for now and possibly my whole life. Overall, 2014 has been a year when I learned about some things that affected my mind in some way.
I really hope my 2015 would be my year that my effort of improving my social life would actually become effective, but I have been trying for a few years and idk if it will take some more or the next year will be it.
Oh rats, this turned into some emo-sounding vent. I'm sorry about that. tbh I don't have anywhere else that I feel conformable letting my frustrations out, and this kinda was thrown up as I typed this. Well, you can discuss something about your year and what you believe is going to happen in the new year. Just, don't try not to throw a huge pity party or explain the depressing things in your life too personally or in too much detail. I don't want to see the overall joyfull, lax community all upset, thus creating some tension.
If this needs some locking, you can do so.
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Miscellaneous Tutorials / WAS YOUR DOWNLOAD INTERRUPTED OR CORRUPTED????
« on: November 23, 2014, 07:51:03 am »
A lot of people have been having this problem and I don't like repeating myself over and over again. There are a couple of easy solutions to this problem.
-Download again
-Get closer to the access point and download again
-Use another browser and download again
-Make sure you don't have your firewall or antivirus blocking the game.
-If the solutions above don't work, then you have to download an application that will export torrent files such as uTorrent. Download the torrent file on the download page and open it with the application. It should export it. Any problems with the program is not my or any other's responsibility because the program doesn't associate with the game.
UTORRENT IS COMPLETLY FREE AND SAFE AS FERALHEART.
-If none of these work, I'd suggest private messaging an active moderator.
I don't exactly know why this is happening. It seems like the file itself where you go and download was corrupted by itself. You may have to resort into downloading the torrent because the torrent download is the only one working according to other players, until further notice.
I don't want to mention this, but sorry if it seems like I'm mini-modding or some stupid thing like that. Members are allowed to help like you said, right?
-Download again
-Get closer to the access point and download again
-Use another browser and download again
-Make sure you don't have your firewall or antivirus blocking the game.
-If the solutions above don't work, then you have to download an application that will export torrent files such as uTorrent. Download the torrent file on the download page and open it with the application. It should export it. Any problems with the program is not my or any other's responsibility because the program doesn't associate with the game.
UTORRENT IS COMPLETLY FREE AND SAFE AS FERALHEART.
-If none of these work, I'd suggest private messaging an active moderator.
I don't exactly know why this is happening. It seems like the file itself where you go and download was corrupted by itself. You may have to resort into downloading the torrent because the torrent download is the only one working according to other players, until further notice.
I don't want to mention this, but sorry if it seems like I'm mini-modding or some stupid thing like that. Members are allowed to help like you said, right?
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Game Help / Preset maker is being a poopy-butt
« on: October 04, 2014, 09:46:24 pm »
Everytime I try to preview a preset the game crashes. This is only happening for preset5, the section I'm working on.
my material file
my material file
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Site/Forum Help / Apparently I'm hacking myself; Can't change signature
« on: September 16, 2014, 04:24:39 am »
I'm tired of seeing Urie's 19 year old[?] underweight self (and im p sure other people are too lmao) but every time I try to change my signature this happens. http://i.gyazo.com/cdba23c7ae6c2f7d78cdd1fdd6d04263.png The website thinks I'm hacking myself.
This has been happening since yesterday. I tried logging out and restarting my browser but nothing worked?????
This has been happening since yesterday. I tried logging out and restarting my browser but nothing worked?????
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i don't like this game anymore. the game is filled with crackheads and bullies. im barely on the game, i only go on if i have the nerve, which isn't that often. i don't roleplay anymore because i lack correct grammar, and every roleplay on the game is only accepting hyper-realistic "literates". there's too many dark-colored wolves on here thinking they are so "grown-up" when they are only like 15. and most of all, this game is boring. it haven't been updated since more than 2 years. it's the same thing over and over again. in all honesty, i don't even know why people find this game as enjoyable as playing arokai or something.
as for the fourms, which im more active on, it is obvious that no one like my presence. i feel very unwelcome here. people hate me. i shouldnt be here if people don't really like me. i know everyone's annoyed by every single post i make.
think im only wanting attention? go ahead. im upset. i don't like this place. im only saying this to rant.
i would link my deviantart but no one would really care so you can find it somewhere else if you REALLY have the nerve to follow me further. as for my activity, i may be visiting the forums like once a week on average. im still keeping fh on my computer, since i may also visit there sometimes but that's unlikely.
bye
as for the fourms, which im more active on, it is obvious that no one like my presence. i feel very unwelcome here. people hate me. i shouldnt be here if people don't really like me. i know everyone's annoyed by every single post i make.
think im only wanting attention? go ahead. im upset. i don't like this place. im only saying this to rant.
i would link my deviantart but no one would really care so you can find it somewhere else if you REALLY have the nerve to follow me further. as for my activity, i may be visiting the forums like once a week on average. im still keeping fh on my computer, since i may also visit there sometimes but that's unlikely.
bye