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Title: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Vespian on August 03, 2017, 08:20:35 pm
Okay, well, it looks like I'm doing this.

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The name's Sabrina but ever since 2013, individuals both of acquaintance and close friendship, even strangers, have called me by the name of Vespian. I'm a 20-year-old cisgender female who currently resides in the United States of America.
The name, Vespian, has become a part of me, both the name and the character, so much so that it's very strange to me for people to call me Sabrina when they also know I respond to Vespian. There's been a couple of times where someone would call me by my birth-given name and I'd question, "Whose Sabrina?" They'd have to remind me. There's also been multiple instances where I'd subconsciously address myself as Vespian without meaning to.
The few online friends I've had the privilege of visiting call me Vespian, a few friends I have made while in high school continue to call me Vespian, basically the only people who call me Sabrina are my family and those unaware of Vespian's existence.

Will I ever change my name from Sabrina to Vespian? No, because I will never abandon the name my parents have bestowed upon me. Instead, Vespian serves as a pen name similar to J.K. Rowling's.

I've joined FeralHeart during the summer of the year, 2011. A friend of mine, who no longer plays FeralHeart, talked me into downloading it and giving it a try. I was only 14 at the time. Back then, I devoted myself to role-play, albeit my writing was terribly simplistic at the time, and since FeralHeart is a game that promotes role-playing, I fell in love with it instantly.
As I grew, I've made friends as well as a couple of enemies but that's okay. The friends I have made here, I still keep in touch. Actually, we've become inseparable and we all share the same dream of visiting or living close to one another. They say that friendships up to 7 years means they will be your friends for life. Well, my connection with these people are close to 6 years if not already. I will never leave them as I know they will never leave me. I love them with all my heart and would gladly throw myself into harm's way to ensure their safety, but enough of that.

While I am certainly not around as much as I used to be, which was practically daily, I do loiter here whenever I possibly can. Back then, I didn't have work or college weighing on my shoulders as priorities.
Currently, I work at an institution that tends to the needs of children. While I do not handle the patients myself as I do not have a professional license, I am an assistant to the nurses. It isn't much but it helps me get through college.
Speaking of college, I'm majoring in biology while minoring in literature. I do love to write and my writing skills have been praised ever since I was in high school. However, what I do write can be a bit difficult for people to interpret as my specialty lies in vague yet disturbing descriptions and the use of metaphors.

Here's an example:


The rats, the bloody rats...
He hears them, squelching through the trunks of the trees. It was preposterous to mishear them.

Squeak, squeak, squeak, they went.

Miniscule voices, drowning, compressing into one another with the occasional screams of a rodent. Could man even hear such a thing? It were so high-pitched, so rampant, an anomaly for rodents did not deserve to scream as insects did not deserve to speak.
Frenzied hands, disgustingly mutated, pressed together tightly in prayer. Thus, did angel skin peel back from hog teeth but no words came forth from the blackened tongue. They couldn't. He did not deserve to speak for the angels instructed him not to. A vow of eternal silence in compensation of the mercy of the Eldritch Truths. The insects did not obey. Rebellious traitors.
The rats, they grew louder. A thousand eyes saw them, saw their heads by the masses writhing with jaws agape. They kept screaming, screaming, screaming, they wouldn't stop.
He pressed another set of hands to his ears and so did he bray like a great terror not matching the description of vicar much less prophet. A boisterous scenario.

. . .

Hundreds of great feathers trembled as the eyes opened. He felt them, the worms in his stomach. They gave him... a rather warm feeling inside. He no longer felt empty, it made him smile. Nestled they were, far in the back of his throat and if he were to open wide, anyone would be able to see them. Careful, he must be! He'd not want them to escape. Not like the moths which fluttered on wound-up wings.
There was a buzzing in his eardrums, all four of them, as the unsightly beast rose from his collapse. His skin, it was peeling off. It always has and he'd have to stitch it back together to shove himself back inside.
He had lost his crown long ago so at least his head were lighter. No longer was it a struggle to lift nor did he have to worry about a tangled mane. Repetitively, the thought cycled through his head, "Give me my halo and take your rusted crown."
Problem was...

The Earth sung to him that noontide, not yet swept away by the starry ocean. How kind it was and yet, so very cruel. Massive bones popped and cracked, a reverberating gnarl escaping clacking jowls brimmed with teeth. It was low like rolling thunder but had a shrill edge to it. How frightening.
The animals knew better than to be in the presence of one whom stared up into Heaven. Scarcely were they spotted around, especially so when his skin lay in shambles on the grass cuddling his limbs. No, his company were the insects which buzzed by his ears. The birds didn't like him very well, perching on the eyes. Voices flooded his head, each different and each assigned. The hymns, he dubbed them. He listened to them, sometimes. He had no choice but to.

An accursed creature, idling in the field. Some may find him weeping but do not get too close. The worms are recorded of being fiercely protective of their host. Sometimes, he'd die momentarily but only for five seconds. Then, the eyes opened again. A constant cycle.

My love for biology and the world's animals are also in adoration. I hope to become a Marine Biologist and spend most of my time out on the sea once I finish college.

A fun fact to share, I've inherited my great grandmother's sixth sense. She had psychic tendencies whose dreams gave her messages and strong hunches and ever since I was a child, I've exhibited the same gifts. It's very rare for my hunches to be incorrect and as a result, I'm a strong believer of the vibes I pick up from people or the vague tellings my dreams instruct upon me overnight.

Another fun fact, I used to live in multiple haunted houses so if you're looking for a genuine ghost story, I'm the person you can speak to.

I guess I can share some of my likes and dislikes now.





I like...

` Full Moons
` Rainy Days
` The Ocean
` Fireflies
` Cincinnatus, My Pain-In-The-Butt Sister
` Warm Tea
` Gothic Architecture
` Flesh
` Friendly Faces
` Philosophy
` Dark Humor
` Music
` Horror
` Deep Conversations
` Anime
` Sacred Places
` Eyes
` Cheshire, My Saint
` Lush Forests
` Memes
` Animals
` Bird, My First Mother
` Bones
` Men In Suits
` Haunted Places
` Tragic Stories
` My 200+ Anime Sons
` My Fandoms
` My Assortment Of Characters
` Art
` The Bloodborne/Dark Souls Franchise
` Deformities
` Teivel, My Wife
` Desdaemona, My Second Mother
` Brent, My Child
` Religion
` etc.


Things I dislike...

` Judgement
` Cocky Attitudes
` Individuals On High Horses
` Smoking
` Drinking
` Unfriendly Faces
` Hot Weather
` The Sun
` Loud Voices
` Pollution
` Junk Food
` Crowds
` People Who Hunt Animals
` Unnecessary Drama
` Bullying
` Inconsideration
` Know-It-Alls
` Immaturity
` Stupidity
` etc.

I believe I've covered everything... but if not, anyone is free to toss me a question on my Ask Me (https://feral-heart.com/smf/index.php?topic=39145.0) thread!
It's a bit old but it's still relevant and I dislike making multiple threads of the same purpose.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: druid on August 03, 2017, 09:03:21 pm
i love you ❤
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Kuri on August 03, 2017, 09:12:18 pm
Tell me a ghost story some time.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Vespian on August 03, 2017, 09:17:46 pm
i love you ❤

You are my precious flower. ♡

Tell me a ghost story some time.

That, I shall!
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Divantio on August 03, 2017, 09:37:59 pm
This is great, Vesp. The world needs to know how much of a weeb you are. *Whispers* neeeeeerd.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Vespian on August 03, 2017, 09:43:16 pm
This is great, Vesp. The world needs to know how much of a weeb you are. *Whispers* neeeeeerd.

B R EN T
SHOVE OFF MY THREAD LOL
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Insoholic on August 04, 2017, 11:13:20 am
It was nice getting to know more about you! Awesome bio, I must say.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: sanrio on August 04, 2017, 11:20:27 am
You've written quite a bit about yourself here, I think I'm too boring myself to write more than 2 sentences.
I see we share a love for memes, I mean, who doesn't?
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Azurain on August 04, 2017, 11:34:57 am
So I'm not the only one who has issues with an online name vs real life name? Heh.

Anyways, this is a very nice bio and it was great getting to know more about you! ^^
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: VortexAlive on August 04, 2017, 12:12:37 pm
Lovely bio, Vesp. It's nice of you to share and it was interesting to read. =)
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Vespian on August 04, 2017, 12:38:41 pm
It was nice getting to know more about you! Awesome bio, I must say.

Thank you, Valhayes! It was kind of you to say that. ♥

You've written quite a bit about yourself here, I think I'm too boring myself to write more than 2 sentences.
I see we share a love for memes, I mean, who doesn't?

(http://ih0.redbubble.net/image.134293800.6750/flat,800x800,075,f.jpg)

So I'm not the only one who has issues with an online name vs real life name? Heh.

Anyways, this is a very nice bio and it was great getting to know more about you! ^^

Aye, it's just a bit strange to me, especially when a person knows me as Vespian but then commences to address me as my actual name. To be called Vespian or Sabrina, I'd much prefer being called Vespian. I guess it's because from age 15-20 (present), during that time period when one begins to find themselves as a person, I've adopted the name and have been socially addressed as that name during that stage in my life. I never had many friends back then so most of my socializing was spent online, where I was recognized and addressed as Vespian so before I knew it, the name gradually started to bear more meaning to me than my actual name.
Anyways, thank you!


Lovely bio, Vesp. It's nice of you to share and it was interesting to read. =)

Thank you, Vortex! I'm glad my biography didn't bore you, haha.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Kastilla on August 12, 2017, 02:44:00 am
leaves offering

I am overjoyed to see your pretty face, Papa Vespian! ❤

Maybe even inspired to show mine as well, huh.

It was nice to read about you, as always. c:
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Wyldercat on August 12, 2017, 03:06:27 am
A most wonderful snippet. It's always a pleasure to get to know people better.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Vespian on August 12, 2017, 03:32:35 am
leaves offering

I am overjoyed to see your pretty face, Papa Vespian! ❤

Maybe even inspired to show mine as well, huh.

It was nice to read about you, as always. c:


Graciously takes offering.

Oh, please, you're so kind to me, my sweet child! ;A;
Yes, show Father Vesp your face. I've already seen it a couple of times before but you're still very cute. ♥


A most wonderful snippet. It's always a pleasure to get to know people better.

Thank you, Wylder! Yes, yes, I agree.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Ellen11v on August 12, 2017, 05:28:29 pm
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Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Vespian on August 14, 2017, 03:27:55 am
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Y e s. I love memes.

Updated! I've finally added an example of my writing!
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Divantio on August 14, 2017, 03:31:38 am
Quote
Updated! I've finally added an example of my writing!

Nutty professor back at it again with the trips.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast
Post by: Vespian on August 14, 2017, 03:34:21 am
Quote
Updated! I've finally added an example of my writing!

Nutty professor back at it again with the trips.

I'm pretty confident that whenever I do literature, I just smash my head open and let all the weirdness pour itself out on the keyboard.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Morqque on August 14, 2017, 11:53:08 pm
Ayyyy, remember me? I was formally Zircon. Long time no talk, boio.
And jeez, we've got a ton in common, especially our love for macabre things.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Vespian on August 15, 2017, 01:39:46 am
Ayyyy, remember me? I was formally Zircon. Long time no talk, boio.
And jeez, we've got a ton in common, especially our love for macabre things.

Yes, I remember you quite well! You were that lovely leopard (or jaguar?) character, Isaac, way back when.
Yes, a fellow Horror Freak™, hahaha. There must be oodles for us to share and me always welcomes a friendly chat.
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: G4RG0YLE on August 15, 2017, 08:47:55 am
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Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Vespian on August 16, 2017, 04:10:48 pm
(https://www.mememaker.net/static/images/memes/4270097.jpg)

(https://static.tumblr.com/1bab57be47401124e5d2f94c647c133c/48ng8jc/nNRnh6fto/tumblr_static_tumblr_static_3nek0rskrw844k0kckwsw8gos_640.gif)

Yes, I like memes. >u>
Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Bawfle on August 16, 2017, 06:44:22 pm
Gross

OH HEY IT YOU, HELLO MY PRETTY

It's so good knowing even more about you

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Title: Re: The Lass Behind the Beast | Updated 08/13/2017
Post by: Vespian on August 16, 2017, 07:26:56 pm
Gross

OH HEY IT YOU, HELLO MY PRETTY

It's so good knowing even more about you

(https://media.tenor.com/images/236ee382fdf16973567dc3bb44c21b51/tenor.gif)

D is gusting

HI HEY HELLO IT'S ME

Aah, thank you! ;A; ♥ ♥ ♥