It's sad to hear that you have done something wrong that has brought you to this situation; Always remember to check everything to make sure you do not do this again. It is good that you can at least hang around the forums, and try to keep in touch with your friends.
I am certain that many people will grieve your disappearance, and will be waiting anxiously for your return next year. I hope you will be prepared when you return and know not to make the mistake once more.
I wish you the best of luck, and hope you can find things to keep you busy in your time away.
From the Shadows~
~Hallucination