I am sorry to hear about your situation. Really this forum is hard to hack into unless you personally give out your password or it was a easy password to guess.
I suggest talking to the admin (preferably Red) to see if he can reset that for you.
Click this to go to Reds profile page (http://www.feral-heart.com/index.php?option=com_jfusion&Itemid=2&jfile=index.php&action=profile&u=20)