That's okay, I know how awful this must be at the moment. I'm glad that you took back all of that language and that you feel bad about it. Take a bit of break.
Even though I know you want to just leave, it might be worth seeing if we can find the cause to this problem and try to understand why this has happened. You never know, we might be able to recover your account, if not show you how to rebuild it.
But I do feel bad for you, it's not gonna feel nice losing all of those characters and memories. I know how much they can mean.
Maybe, if we can't get all of your info and characters back, it might be a good idea to take a break from the game for a bit, if you feel that terribly mad. It would be worth coming back though, to make new memories at the very least.