My Biggest Fear...

[Dobo]

So in FH I really only RP male characters. It's whatever right, because girls RP dudes all the time, but I tend to not tell people I'm a girl 'cause I don't think it really matters. I realized a while ago, that it does matter ._.
This is basically going to be a story that's kinda a lot like what's happened to me and what I'm afraid will happen in the near future....

   I just joined a new pride today. We didn't really do much rping and I think I just got sucked into a group of illiterates... whatever. I seem to do a good job of making people "lol" and "XD", but I'm not really having much fun.
   After about an hour of stupidity, someone pops into our den. I don't mind, but the queen is fuming. "Males, do something! Your job is to protect the pride, so DO YOUR JOB!!!" she yells. No need to throw a tantrum ya little baby.... I walk up to the mountain lion and say with a straight face, "If you don't get out right now... I'm gonna pinch your butt ._." That definitely caused a silent roar of virtual laughter.
   Basically immediately after that, we became best friends....
   We talked for hours almost every day. We only ever RPed as mates. We even started our own pack. As she started telling me more about herself, I started telling her more and more about myself. We even told each other our first names. Except, I forgot to mention one very important thing about me... my gender. It's obvious to me that I'm a girl, but I guess it's not as easy for people who only know me as male animals to see that fact. I just can't bring myself to tell her now.
   I think she's in love with me. Sorry, let me elaborate. Yesterday before she logged off, she said she loves me. I know friends say they love each other, at least some of them do, but I don't think that's the case in this scenario. Today we were talking about what we liked appearance wise and she tried her best to relate to all the things I said I think are attractive. I thought that was cute, because she was just trying so hard. Then I felt bad, because I knew I would never love her back. I should've just been born a boy, then I wouldn't be having this problem.... We RP for a bit, and and her character looks coincidentally exactly like what I said I think is attractive. I don't really now how to handle the situation. It's far too late to tell her now, but we're friends. But she wants to be more than friends.... I say I have to go and log off.
   "YOU" I get in a whisper after not being online for about a month or two. "meow meow" I respond as I usually do.
"Don't give me that."
"What do ya mean :I"
"I can't believe you... and after all this time! "
   My throat tightens. She knows. "Um... I'm sorry...? I don't know exactly what I did wrong..." I lie.
   She doesn't respond back. She never did. Years of friendship was lost in a matter of seconds because I couldn't admit to one simple truth. Sometimes I watch the chat log to see her user name... it's the only way I get to see it now, after she blocked me.           

Waelp, that's my story... not my REAL story of course... that would be awkward... :/
Any hoozlez, please don't take this story too, too seriously, cuz i dont ._.
If something like this ever does happen to me then... whatever -shrug-
If ya ask me, they just aren't ready... for my jelly ._.
BAI!!!

[sunlessarizona]

lel, I never RP as a male. I always am just like 'loklololololollollololololo' all day and I can nevr find any good RPs so maybe we could RP together sometime? I made an RP group, and I need more people for it.
http://www.feral-heart.com/index.php?option=com_jfusion&Itemid=2&jfile=index.php&topic=48148.msg656156#msg656156

[Dobo]

sounds neat-o :I

[DungeonSiegeWolf]

I'm sorry that happened to you, although I've never experienced that (yet).

I tend to play many games that are targeted mainly for guys (CoD, TF2, Dark Souls, Skyrim, Assassin's Creed, that sort of thing), and I've made a lot of best friends who are guys. I usually never tell my real gender, though. I just play along with the 'There are no girls who play violent games' rule.

[wolf48877]

XD I RP as a guy sometimes XD I'm so terribly sorry this happened to u ;-;