Savior
Once upon a time
I was held down.
I was mercilessly beaten
Tormented
Harassed
Destroyed
All by my own thoughts.
I was shunned
Ridiculed
Hated
By the voice.
I was reprimanded
Decimated
Bent
By the voice.
It convinced me to hate myself
And, in turn, hate everyone
I went through life miserable
If you can call even that a life.
One night, it was decided.
One night, I prepared for my end.
One night, I lay there, ready.
I messaged you a simple word.
"Goodbye."
That night, I prepared for death.
I expected no reply.
I expected no sympathy.
I expected no opposition.
I was wrong.
Because
The message I received
Was more.
"Please don't.
You're so important."
That night, things changed
And although I'm not completely better
I'm still here
And I think that's
All
That
Matters.
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Sorry
Sorry for all the hell
I've put you through.
Sorry for the hatred
The spite
The anger
The disgust.
Sorry for the aversion
That I've subjected you to.
Sorry for the bitterness
The disappointment
The resentment
The harassment.
Because
No one deserves that
And while I don't condone
What you did
That doesn't permit me
To subject you to ridicule
And while I know you won't see this
I needed to say it.
Sorry.
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For A Boy
I've heard it said
That when you dream of someone
They're thinking of you.
I can only hope one thing.
I hope I'm not keeping you awake.
I love you.
I don't know when
Or how
Or why
You wormed your way
Into my mind.
But one thing is for certain
You're here to stay.
I love you.
I'm too scared to admit it
Because I know the answer.
There is no reason to love me
Or even remotely like me
Why do you stick around?
Why do you give me second chances?
I certainly don't deserve them.
You should know that by now.
Thank you.
You should have left be already.
Dropped me on the side of the road.
Shut me out in the rain.
Ignored my pleas
My cries.
It's gotten old.
Save me.
So while I sit here
I let my mind wander.
And
As usual
My thoughts drift to you.
I wonder what you're doing
Or what your plans are
Whether you're going to the movies
Or the mall
Or out to eat
Or work.
And then, it comes to the most important question
Do you love me? Because I love you.
