Crystal's Poems From (LOS)

[gold feathers]

It's been a long time since I discovered this thread and yet I haven't really jumped at the idea of sharing some of my loved poems. Well today is the day when I will share my poems with you. These are from my account on lover of sadness. Hope you like them.

The Autumn Feelings

Yellow,orange,red are the leaves
Hanging by a moment from the trees.
Soon the time where all becomes white
And snow will be the only thing in sight.

The feeling of longing
The feeling of mist
The feeling belonging,
To those you have missed

Nothing will be the same as the trees turn bare
Nothing will seem to witness the seeming care
That the snow makes to cover everything
From the bashful winter to the warmer spring

The feeling of longing
The feeling so deep
The feelings of love to,
The memories you keep.

The days are shorter and days are cold
The leaves keep falling from the autumn's hold
And the memories from last year start to unfold
When the autumn scenery glistens like gold.

Many Moments

Reliving the hurt for so many years
Fatefully giving up still hardly standing
Trying hard not to share hurtful tears
Sometimes we don't know where we're landing.

As seasons go by, many moments remembered
I think of us how we shared those memories
The happy yet sad moments surrendered
The autumn has it's grip around us, the breeze.

It doesn't make sense to relive this again
But your the one who i kept thinking of
Trying so hard not to give up as the rain,
Kept falling on us, and our love!

Death is so complicated

You think of all the hard times
Of all your hard mistakes
You think your living in crimes
You think it's all it takes.

Sometimes you cry at night
Wishing to see him again
You wish he would hold you tight
And then the nightmares begin

You enter your world of sorrow
You look back at the past with pain
Wishing there's another life you could borrow
And wish you could see him again

But he will never return
All that's left is conscience
Only one memory from which i learn
The beauty of his innocence

And the painful past
When you used to be mean to him
And he was mean back at last
But the future seemed so dim

And then it hit you
The truth followed by the accident
He was in love with you
And He died .. death so significant

So you think your the one to blame
misery and darkness Dawn
He is just a picture in a frame
And you give up knowing he's gone

The Burnt Picture

I look at the torn picture
Just trying to let go
Still trying to capture
The hope of long ago

I try to rescue my memory
Put the two halves into one
your birthday was in January
And the picture was taken then

The burnt picture in my hand
is all that i have left
Is this really where i stand?
At the devastating depth?

Your death brought despair
It covered my heart in fear
The image is just a blur
But the memory is still Clear

I'm covered in depression
I painfully cry for help
I ask my self the same question
Is it really how i felt?

I feel my heart torn and bruised
It won't last longer now
My throbbing heart is abused
But i'll survive somehow

i look through the mist
In my shadow's hand a knife
I run it through My trembling wrist
Hoping to end my life

I wake up to the blinding sun
I know i dream't up my death
I don't know what i have done
I'm feeling my own breath

The picture is fractured and torn
Down the middle a rip is engraved
The memory is like a thorn
The delicate picture still saved

I cry as the raindrops fall
I stand hurt but brave
I pretend to be strong and tall
As i stand upon your grave

My recent animal one and probably my firstpoem from the view of a bird

A Birds Life

I hatch and open my eyes
I look up at the blue skies
Inside a nest Really high up
Can't wait to grow up

I grow up really fast
With love and help
Nearly grown up at last
This was how i felt

Feathers covered my wings
Yet again I looked at the sky
No matter what the future brings
I watch as time flies by

I spread wide my wings
I look back once more
All those little things
Have opened the door

I lift off the ground
I see other birds lift off too
I happily look around
That's when i met you

We became friends
Spent half the life together
Got each other mates
I thought you'd stay forever

We flew a long way
So much things we fought
but then came the day
That changed the way i thought

Hunters came
With guns and knives
They started a flame
I lost both of you, your lives

Your mate stayed faithful
Remembered the things you said
Your flight was so grateful
But it's ended, now that your both dead

Don't ever stay hateful
Even though it's the end
I will always be unable
To forget you my dear friend

You might want to know
I lost my mate short after
In a blizzard, in the snow
But i will never forget the laughter

I fell into a tree
But unlike you i fell and got up
I was happy and i was free
It took so long to grow up

I had four chicks
Found another mate
But they can't take your place
because it's too late

You might be happy to know
My chicks grew up and flew away
Though they didn't take so slow
To Grow up and live another day

So here i am
Singing by your grave
I still give a damn
Look at me, i'll still stay brave

I lay down on the cold ground
I won't pick myself up this time
I make no sound
As i finish this rhyme

I close my eyes
The journey ends here
I became so wise
When my life's ending became so near

I take a deep breath
And keep my wings closed
All the memories i left
Please. Keep them enclosed

This one was inspired by a very beautiful song called Leaves In The Wind...

Leaves In The Wind

As the night goes by
I look at the night sky
Thinking of you every day
Wishing you never really went away

Still wishing you could come back
Wishing you could return
Not Knowing the love i lack
I still have a lot to learn


I will never know how or when
In my hand a paper and pen
I write the lyrics to my life
Just know your words hurt like a knife

I still don't quite understand
How you could let go of my hand
Push me away, never trying
But inside you dream of flying


I ask if you remember me
You don't say we were never to be
I ask another question fearfully
You reply your not mad at me

But when i try to enter your life
You push me away,again just like a knife
You keep your doors closed
Your heart secretly enclosed

The wind whispers goodbye
The Leaves' whispers rustle by
They tell a story of long ago
Of how you left me with a broken soul.

This one was inspired by a very touching soundtrack called Apporaching Night

Approaching Night

I stood by you as you lay
Dying, you wont live another day
It was hard for me to Understand
And this is now where i stand

Wind whispers through the last leaves
Half bare, stand the oak trees
And this i won't understand
Because this is where you stand

Will you try to remember?
Or will you just surrender?
I still don't understand
Because here we still stand

The bare oaks stand
And finally now i understand
I lean against the rough oak wood
Long ago.....
this was where we stood

This one is my most famous Poem and defiantly my first ever written by me.

Ending The Pain

I loved you my sweetheart, my heart my soul
I love you forever wherever you go.

I think of you everyday
wishing for you
wishing for you to stay
wishes come true

then I see the lies
I see you there
my heart, it cries
while I just stare

I trusted you
I told the truth
some lies where true
I needed you

I look at the past
just a stab in the heart
our love didn't last
though I loved you from the start

I took a knife
thought back at the pain
ending my life
I opened my vain

tears fill my eyes
so it ends right here
I see through the lies
and you disappear

I feel weak and cold
dying to see you again
the past never told
I could not take the strain

so I close my eyes
take a deep breath
with you in my mind
I welcome my death.

And Another one here

Broken

I know you love someone
the way I love you
but if you thought of me
just saw all the truth

I know it is hard
I know its all gone
but I wont give up
until I have won

but now that we're through
I want you to know
that I dream of you
you I would die for

so when I catch up
I will know for sure
that I wouldn't give up
I wouldn't let go

now comes a day
I lose all the hope
you're not coming back to me
its all my fault

Defiantly depressing but I stil love it

Breaking And Defeated

So you downed a person
killed their part
drowned the soul
and killed the heart

my tears will fill the ocean full
until I see your face so still.
I loved you so much but all faded
and the heart is still not mended

after you left on that day
both of us have lost our ways.
once you're here
the next your gone
I want to see
who has won

now there's fear
the next hearts torn.

Here is one that is a tad depressing

Left Me

You left me
standing there
broken memory ...
life's not fair.

your face
was sweet
we still had ways
but they never meet

break up with me
heading up..
leaving me ...
you break my heart

you seem fine
while I'm upset
you're not mine ...
since last time we met.

so I wish again  
but you just lie ...
so I watch the rain
and see the love die.

I hope you have enjoyed reading through them. But note that these were created by me so if you want to use any quote from this poem then please ASK me first before using this as this is classed as copyright! I may reject your offer so ask first before proceeding to copy ANY of these poems.