This isn't just to include a few people, it's to include the whole community, old and new!
I want you all to know how grateful I am to you all and this game. When I returned back in 2016 and began to get involved with this community, it gave me a purpose in my life. To help others and help make the game a better place. I know that over the last two years I have strayed from that, and have let most of you down. I have lost some very important people in my life due to it and even to this day I regret it.
However that is over now and it is time to move on. And with the help of all of the rest of you, it can be possible. I know I'm not someone that represents the game well. I know I'm....honestly the last person anyone on this game would want to help out and around with others. And I know I say this so so so much...every year....day in and day out....but I really want to change for the better. I really really do. I hate what I have become. I hate that I let myself stray away from what is important on FeralHeart. And I know the people that have known me the best and seen how I am will doubt I will ever change because of how often I swing around from self loathing, to hate, to regret, and back again.
But I'm going to show everyone that I've let down that I will change. I'm hoping 2019 will be my year. But all of the people that have stuck with me despite me turning on them, or showing that I am a terrible person....I love you all so so so much. And I love FeralHeart and its community as a whole. Without this game and any of you, I probably wouldn't even be here. I'm not asking for forgiveness. Me begging for that is over. Instead, I WILL show you all that I am capable of getting over this.