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Member Bio & Journals / New year new me + MORE praise + Apology

« on: January 01, 2019, 05:14:01 am »

Here it is, one more hour until 2019 for me. And it is time for me to finally get a lot off my mind and free myself, as well as other things.

Of course the first thing I want to do is praise this community yet again. I want to thank LonesomeRider, PocketButt, Ratel and wolffox for being the most wonderful friends to me. These four came into my life rather recently, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I remember when I first started talking to Jess about a year ago now....all over a conversation on a yodeling pickle I was supposed to give them last year for Christmas. Here it is a year later and I have yet to do it. Pocket, Rat, and Foxx are a little more recent, but they more or less wiggled under my cold hard shell and just...hit my soft spot and I love you both so much for it. I can't even begin to thank you all for what you have done for me. <3

It's been three years since my return to FeralHeart, and when I started getting more involved with the community. Back then I was just starting to go through some more severe personal issues, and this game and its community more or less helped me with that. This game was an escape from my life issues for awhile and it gave me a purpose in life. There was nothing I loved more than helping out and making people happy. I made friends and met someone to love, you know the story by now. I want to thank the whole community of FeralHeart for helping be a light in the tunnel for me and showing me happiness. For showing me that I wasn't useless.

Now on to the apology. Everyone knows I've done bad in the past. A few more than others. As well as finding a purpose here, I also let ambition get the best of me...and it ended up showing a side to everyone I didn't ever expect to show. Even for myself. I hated over the years how I made mistakes and continued torturing myself for them. But I would take my anger and frustration on people and I lost friends because of it. The last two years have almost been hell for me in that sense. But now....this is a new year. IN this final hour of 2018 (for me) I want to finally release all of my anger, all of my grudges, everything. I want to go into the new year with a clear heart and mind, and the determination to do better for this community.

I'm not expecting any of the people I have wronged to ever forgive me. Nor even speak to me. But as I said, I'm letting it all go and I will try my best to move on and finally be happy where I'm at in this game. I hope I can finally be a helper you all deserve. Cause every single person on this game deserves the world, no matter what has happened.

I love every single one of you, and you can expect me to stay and help around here on this game until I am called onto a new path. I hope everyone's new year is wonderful as well!

Forum Suggestions & Ideas / Secret Santa forum events?

« on: December 11, 2018, 08:48:48 pm »

Yet another little idea I had after doing Secret Santa in a Discord server I'm in. Why don't we have a Secret Santa event here on the forums?

How it would work, we would have people that want to participate by sending in wishlists on a designated thread for the event. After submissions are closed, the staff will set it up and assign a secret Santa to someone and vice versa, and then on Christmas, the gifts are given back out and presented to the community.

This is just a very very basic idea, and I'd love to hear more ideas from you guys! Also keep in mind, it's a tad too late to do this this year, but maybe it can be something that's worked on and presented next year as an event!

Praise / A big ol praise to this wonderful community! <3

« on: December 07, 2018, 05:13:31 pm »

This isn't just to include a few people, it's to include the whole community, old and new!

I want you all to know how grateful I am to you all and this game. When I returned back in 2016 and began to get involved with this community, it gave me a purpose in my life. To help others and help make the game a better place. I know that over the last two years I have strayed from that, and have let most of you down. I have lost some very important people in my life due to it and even to this day I regret it.

However that is over now and it is time to move on. And with the help of all of the rest of you, it can be possible. I know I'm not someone that represents the game well. I know I'm....honestly the last person anyone on this game would want to help out and around with others. And I know I say this so so so much...every year....day in and day out....but I really want to change for the better. I really really do. I hate what I have become. I hate that I let myself stray away from what is important on FeralHeart. And I know the people that have known me the best and seen how I am will doubt I will ever change because of how often I swing around from self loathing, to hate, to regret, and back again.

But I'm going to show everyone that I've let down that I will change. I'm hoping 2019 will be my year. But all of the people that have stuck with me despite me turning on them, or showing that I am a terrible person....I love you all so so so much. And I love FeralHeart and its community as a whole. Without this game and any of you, I probably wouldn't even be here. I'm not asking for forgiveness. Me begging for that is over. Instead, I WILL show you all that I am capable of getting over this.

Discussion Board / What are your favorite Christmas treats?

« on: December 07, 2018, 04:03:13 am »

Hi yes I'm making another holiday themed post WEEE

Anyway, what are your favorite treats for this Merry season? I personally love Eggnog and those yogurt covered pretzels. Would die for all of those.

Discussion Board / What are your New Year's Resolutions?

« on: December 06, 2018, 08:13:49 pm »

Ahhhh here it is. The end of 2018. Looking back, my 2018 was good and bad. Mostly bad. But now that it's the final month, it's time to start thinking of how I'm going to change for the better for 2019.

My resolutions of course, the same as every year since I was quite young, was the main thing...EXERCISE. My goodness I need to start taking better care of myself. I'm not the worst off, but I do have stomach issues and I'm a chubby little thing, and that needs to be fixed. I don't exercise enough or eat well at all.

I also really need to work on being a better person. I say this every year and without fail, every year, I break it and revert back to my horribleness. I need to work on being a better friend, girlfriend, and just an all around good person to those around me. Others may look down on me and say "She'll never change." And they're probably right, as I've shown that I cannot stay a good person. But maybe 2019 will be my year. I can only hope. ~~You all can tell I have total confidence in myself right?~~

What are your guy's resolutions? Do you have anything in particular you want to do differently for 2019?

Game Suggestions & Ideas / Season based maps?

« on: December 05, 2018, 08:42:43 pm »

An idea I had while sitting in Kibou pondering to myself. We have Kibou, which is a totally winter based map. So I was thinking, why not have a couple other maps based on the other two seasons, Spring and Fall? All the rest of the maps such as The Grounds, Eastern, and Seaside are locked in perpetual summer (Kiwi, and Bonfire are tropical maps so it doesn't really count for those and Zama is...underwater.) So why not have a spring and fall map? The spring map can have flowers and new leaves and pale greens and springy colors, while the fall map can have the reds and oranges and browns with falling leaf particles everywhere.

Thought it would be a creative idea for the next patch.

Discussion Board / The NEW Lion King trailer is here! (NOW WITH POSTERS!!)

« on: November 22, 2018, 11:10:22 pm »

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4CbLXeGSDxg

The trailer for the new Lion King movie! Comes out in theaters this July!

I watched this and I actually had tears in my eyes. To see a childhood movie being brought to literal life with this animation is nothing short of glorious. And the fact they have James Earl Jones as Mufasa still (and the original voice actor for adult Simba I think??) makes it even better!

What are you guys looking forward to with this movie? Does it look as good as you thought it would? Are you excited to see it too?

Game Discussion / Secrets of Kibou....and maybe a key to unlocking the lore of FeralHeart

« on: November 17, 2018, 05:27:37 am »

I'm sure many of you have asked yourselves...what is the story behind FeralHeart? What is the lore? For a long time, we all have just more or less....speculated. It still is up for speculation.

However....what if there are a few clues right in front of us? To how the lands of FeralHeart came to be? I've found some interesting paintings in a cave in Kibou that I'm sure many of you have seen, but just in case I'll post them.

These cave paintings I find interesting. Especially the intricate designs of the wolves chasing the caribou. However....no animal could make designs that well...except humans.

Could it be that humans once ruled these lands? We see remnants of strange structures. Maybe humans were the dominate species until they vanished, be it from nature itself or themselves or even both....and the animals then took over, leaving their pawprints on rocks in the cave to show that they have claimed this world as their own.

What do you guy think? What are your theories on the lore of FeralHeart?

Request/Find Meshes / Couple of items maybe?

« on: November 07, 2018, 05:06:07 pm »

Hi there. I was wondering if anyone could possibly make a couple of items for me? They're in the ref below:

Don't have to be anything fancy or anything with special effects. Just a collar with rhinestones studded into it and a crescent moon necklace. If anyone can do that I'd greatly appreciate it! ^^

Commissions, Trades, & Requests / -throws my characters in the spotlight-

« on: October 15, 2018, 11:14:43 pm »

Hi wassup? I uh...would honestly love to give a couple of my characters some love and get some art for them. I'm a broke child so I can't pay much, but I'm willing to pay for some if need be (within my budget that is!)

I have Az here. (Note: She typically wears an amethyst necklace or purple scarf, depending on the season so you can do whatever. IF it's holiday like Halloween or Christmas, she wears either a witch hat and bat necklace or Christmas hat with a candy cane in her mouth and a bow on her tail)

And woof Azura here. (Note: I forgot to put her leg and bullet scar in her official ref so I have screenshots of her old FH preset to show where those are. And the leg scar is just now one big scar that wraps around her leg starting at her elbow and ending over her paw. If need be, I can get a screenshot of her new preset.)

You can draw them any pose, any emotion, Halloween, Christmas, with your own characters, anything! Just as long as it's appropriate! If you want to, you can add me on Discord at Azura#1299 for anything! Thank you for anyone who feels up for this!