Feral Heart

Well, here we go. Right off the bat, I know I'm going to get emotional ;-;. But, let's do this. My final, overdue apology.

Let's start with when I joined Feralheart. I was about 10. Just a little small baby, and let me tell you, I was ANNOYING! Haha. I was so new to the internet and roleplaying, I had no idea what I was doing. I was so bad at roleplaying, I never listened to anyone, I couldn't spell at all, I made bright neon colored OCs, but hey, I got better! Soon, I became better at roleplaying, better at listening, and I no longer made those scary neon colored OCs! Yaaaay! (We all have those dark ages...)
I soon made a clan called Forestclan. It had over 500 members, and I loved it. I loved everyone there, I loved the roleplaying, the story, my friends. Everything. Of course, we all had our ups and downs, we got into fights, but hey, not everything is perfect. I was about 12 at the time, but then something happened to my account (I wont go into details) and I stopped. I couldn't talk to my friends, and when I came back, everyone was... gone. I was close to 13 at the time, but still 12. I was devastated. But, I remade the group, and everything was a little better! But, when I turned 13, I was gone. I stopped playing for a couple of months. When I came back, all my friends were gone, so I just stopped playing for a year.
I just wanted to come back to check on things, and write this. I know, my story wasn't as interesting, but a lot happened, and the memories, although cringy at times, they are so special to me.
But, I guess I'm also trying to say.... I am sorry. I screwed up a lot. I was a jerk at times. I did stupid things, I have made mistakes. I know I upsetted a lot of people, and just, I am sorry.
So, here I am, a small 14 year old, and I will let you all know, I am doing great! I'm trying my best in school, I'm working to get a career in art and animation, and although I am stressed a lot, I am doing good! It is hard to say goodbye, though...
Will i ever be active again? Probably never. Once in a while I might check to see how things are holding up, but I'm so busy, I don't have the time, and truth is, I'm not really interested in playing this game anymore. Maybe I will come back, but like I said, I am super busy, and for me personally, it is kinda awkward, since about 90% of my friends are gone, so I would be kinda lonely, ahaha...

So, although this really wasn't interesting, I just want to say; im sorry, and goodbye. Like I said, I may come back, but we'll see what happens and I know my friends probably wont see this because they aren't on here anymore, but if some do, I want to say hi, and thank you for these wonderful memories. Any last words? Never give up. I believe in you. Follow your dreams. Be kind to others. Ahaha, I know it sounds cheesy, but I wan't this world to be a positive place.

My deviantart is AChubbyPuppy, and if anyone wan'ts to contact me and talk to me, my skype is wildstarofforestclan

Bye.
- Eevee1

What I mean by the title, is that, have you ever had a memory in FH that was bad? Try not to be mean, or say names or anything please
I remember when I first joined (My spelling was pretty bad) and I was walking around with my blue cat character, and then these people started following me for a while, and after a while I said something
Me: what do you guys want?
Them: Why is your character blue? That is like, so not realistic at all
Me: what does realistic mean?
Them: Omg you don't know? haha noob
Me: you guys arent very nice
Them: Aren't, you illiterate noob
And from them on it was bullying, yeah, it was a bad day in FH for me, a bad memory, but I got over it quickly
So, any bad memories you guys ever had? Or maybe something bad that happened reacently?

If you have not read the books yet, I reccomend reading them! The books may sound stupid, but there still very neat books!
Anyways,
I have two characters I dislike, and I will just post why.
1. Firestar.
Firestar is just... meh. I felt he lived to long, he was like, the longest lasting cats in the whole books! Heck, Bluestar didn't get to live that long! Plus, he just felt like that know it all, goody character that always seemed perfect. I just don't like him.

2.Scourge.
His character is just... I don't know, I just dislike him! "Oh, my brother and sister bullied me! I'm just going to go on a killing spree now!" Ya, not that good of a character. Also, apparently, he has dog bones on his collar. How the hell did he put them on the collar?! Sometimes people say he got string and tied them on, but seriously, cats can't tie strings!

Ok, this is just an idea.
Should groups, that are made of FH, if they become unactive, should they delete them?
The only reason I am saying this is because when someone wants to make a name for the group, the name is already taken. For example: FireClan. Already taken. .FireClan. Already taken. Ect, ect. And most of the groups are inactive. Maybe it'll reduce the lag? I doubt that, but it'll make a lot of members happy, maybe. Maybe there would also be a limit, for example: If the leader of the group isn't active with the group for 1 month, it'll be deleted.
What do you guys think?

I hate it when cats always go attack a fox, badger, cyote, or wolf. Its like, everytime you see one "ER MAI GAWD ITS EVIL KILL IT WITH THE FIRE!!!!" I was playing as my Fox pup, and this cat was like "Everybody, attack! Its a Fox!" What the heck. Some people maybe want to be alone, or RP at the moment, or just chilling! 
Oh
and the thing I really really REALLY hate is when people make there cats way big. I usually fine males the biggest, but its like, they get bigger then lions! Thats why I stay at a small size when a cat, to be more realistic 
So what are yours?