Hey guys, just writing something that with a friend that I goofed up with big time, I never get a change to talk to her anymore so maybe she'll read this and finally know how I feel.
I won't say who she is but she knows who she is when I say this. She was an extremely good friend and I am extremely upset that I lost her. She was a good friend who I had a few fun conversations with. She was a friend that I was able to talk to a little when I needed someone to talk to. She was someone I discovered wasn't to good of friends with my other friends but when I really got to know her, she wasn't anything like they said. She was sweet, random, and sometimes I couldn't see how she'd act. She'd be annoyed sometimes and angry, and I'd so stupidly over look that. I thought she was just another person that was able to be spoken to all the time at anytime but I was wrong. She's not another person like that, and I blew it big time with her. When that whole fight broke out, I know I made the wrong choice and I regret that. She shared a lot with me that I will never forget, and I'm not going to lie, she made me worry, a lot at times, but that's all part of having a friend I guess. I just want her to know how much I enjoyed being friends with her, and how much I miss it now. I feel so very stupid, and its causing me to beat down on myself. She knows that it's a two way street, and I've destroyed my way of crossing over with my stupidity. I'm just hoping she can find it in her heart to forgive me because I miss her and wish I could still talk to her. And I want her to know that I am so so so so sorry for what I have done and I just really hope she can forgive me.
You know who you are, I don't even think I got everything down that I wanted to say, there was that much. I really just wanted you to know I miss being friends with you, and I wish that we were still friends but like you said, "You made that choice, not me." I'm hoping that possibly that choice can be reversed, regardless of what certain people think, only what you think.
Delija
