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Syne's Journal [Updated 7/17/15-I'm back!!]
« on: January 02, 2015, 12:50:38 am »
  Not a very original title, but meh. Welcome to my journal! What better time to start a journal than the start of a new year? I've tried to keep a journal in the past, but never made it past the first or second entry. Let's hope that I don't fail this time. (Well, at least I'll hope. You can curse the very moment I decided to write this, if you so desire.) Anyways, I'm going to start off by giving a little background information on things like my circumstances, recent events in my life, etc. So, here I go.

   As I've said in my bio, I am a seventeen-year-old girl living in the United States. My life thus far has been very blessed. I am immeasurably grateful that I have a loving, caring family with a stable, healthy home situation. Then of course there's my group of caring, loyal friends. Both my family and friends have supported me my entire life, and I am so thankful for that seemingly simple thing. I am now in my junior year at a small private school with a classical curriculum (SO much better than public school's Common Core), and it has and continues to equip me with essential skills such as Logic/Rhetoric (learning how to form proper, logical arguments and present them effectively when speaking publicly), Civics (the structures of different types of governments), and Latin (ok, so maybe learning to write and speak a dead language isn't all that helpful). I am also a singer, and I take operatic voice training at a prestigious musical conservatory, and so far I'm doing pretty well. I am thankful to have had a fortunate and adventurous life so far, and I truly believe that I am prepared to greet the rest of my life ahead of me.

   2014 had it's rough spots. Quite a few people close to myself and my family passed away. There seemed to be nothing but stories of savagery, death and despair when you turned on the news. Numerous other personal issues berated myself, my friends and family this past year. However, now it is a new year, and hopefully a new start. I decided my first step in that new start would be beginning this journal. I suppose I should end here for now, but look for new updates every couple of days or so. Have a happy New Year! When we say these words again in 2016, it is my hope and prayer that we can look back at 2015 and say, "We had a great year."


January 5, 2015
  Today was my first day back to school since winter break. Even though it was only two weeks, it felt like a lifetime since I'd seen most of my friends, and I enjoyed catching up with them. I reluctantly received an overly enthusiastic hug from one of my friends, listened to another as she fumed about recent events on The Legend of Korra, and basically just derped around for a while. When the locker room got too noisy (seriously, it is a tiny room packed with about 20 girls ranging from 7th to 12th grade), I crossed the hallway to a classroom, and hunkered down there till classes started.

   The first part of the day went by smoothly, but halfway through Civics class, my nights of staying up till four in the morning during break were catching up with me. Soon, rolling haze seemed to blur my vision, and my teacher's words seemed to melt together into senseless gibberish. She seemed to be talking about two opposing views in American government. What's new there? Why can't people...-yawn-...just get...along...relax...sleeeeeeeeeep...
  
   "Megan? Please pick your head up off the desk." My teacher stared at me with half-exasperation, half-concern. I stared back blankly in dismay. I fell asleep? I never fall asleep in class! I managed to stay more-or-less awake for the rest of the class, though I don't remember a thing of what we learned.

   Luckily, lunch was next, and I spent it curled up on the floor in the corner of the locker room, my head buried in my sweatshirt. My contentment was short-lived, as soon I remembered what class I had next. Pre-Calculus. The Trigonometry unit. Oh dear...

   It was no use. I fought to pry my eyes open, but nothing made sense to me. Several times I found myself on the cusp of dreaming, but I'd pull myself away and try to wake myself up. I was at one point caught in a strange limbo between being asleep and awake, where I felt as though I was inside a small cave or den, with the opening high above my head, and I kept trying to stretch up and peer out and get a glimpse of reality. It was quite a surreal experience. My ever-patient and ever-forgiving Pre-Calc teacher noticed my comatose state, and actually let me sleep through the class. However, I do remember opening my eyes slightly to see him writing sine and cosine values backwards on the board. I'm not sure whether it was my imagination or if he was playing a joke on me. Still, I thanked him profusely at the end of class, and walked away promising myself that I would get a good night's sleep tonight.

January 10, 2015 (WARNING: VERY VERY LONG)
  I probably should have written this on Saturday when it ACTUALLY happened, but I was just too tired and since then have been busy with projects and midterms.

   So, I mentioned that I am taking voice lessons at a musical conservatory (Wait...I didn't? *edits furiously*). I began my study there this past summer, and, while I still have A LOT to learn, I have improved significantly. However, this past Saturday put that to the test. It was the day of my first recital at the conservatory.

   There were many reasons that made me so terribly nervous for this day. Firstly, it was the Saturday following the first week of school after break, and I was still trying to remember how to use the fleshy thing in my skull called a brain (I'm still trying to remember, really). Secondly, as schools were closed for break, so was the conservatory, and so I hadn't had a lesson in three or four weeks. Thirdly, one of the songs I was performing for the recital was in French. I'm not good at French.

   In spite of my constant anxiety and fervent protests, January 10th arrived, and, whether I liked it or not, I was going to stand on that stage and sing. When I arrived, my voice teacher found me and directed me to a practice room where about twenty other students were busy with vocal warm-ups or poring over their sheet music. There are three voice teachers who work at the conservatory, and they each had all their students here to perform. I noticed that the other students tended to socialize mainly with others who took lessons from the same teacher. I am one of only three students who take lessons from my teacher, but I was happy to be in a small group. I sat with them, took out my sheet music, and quietly practiced my French until it was my turn to perform.

   I was second to last in the lineup, so I had an hour before it was my turn to take the stage. My heart beat harder with every passing minute. What if I mess up the timing? What if I forget my words? What if I look like a complete idiot? One of the other students I had been talking to had assured me that there was nothing to worry about, but still these thoughts ran through my head. Eventually, I realized with a sickening jolt that it would soon be time for my performance, and I rose and scurried across the hall to the door that led backstage.

   When backstage, I could more clearly hear the songs of the other students as they performed. How could I ever match those beautiful voices? With that last thought, I took a shuddering breath, put on a mask of confidence, and strode on stage. The recital hall really was lovely. It looked to be from the 1920's or 30's, with a high arching ceiling above the stage and sconces adorning the walls of the seating beyond. There was even a large tapestry hanging from one wall. I assumed my position near the grand piano, and the pianist took her cue to begin playing. Well, here goes nothing, I thought, and opened my mouth.

Plaisir d'amour, ne durre qu'un moment,
Chagrin d'amour durre toute la vie...

  The French now flowed surprisingly easily, and before I knew it I finished, and the audience applauded. The pianist began to play the intro of my second song, "The Lass from the Low Countree." (Yes, "countree" is the correct spelling in the song.)

Oh, he was a lord of high degree,
And she was a lass from the Low Countree,
But she loved his lordship so tenderly...
Oh, sorrow, sing sorrow!
Now she sleeps in the valley where the wildflowers nod,
And no one knows she loved him but herself and God.

  The sweet mournful melody rolled from my throat. I always loved the emotions of this song. I concluded the last note as the piano cords faded to nothing, and the sound was replaced by another round of applause. Weak from relief, I gave a quick bow and exited the stage.

   That night, I lay in bed still smiling. Whether it was the recital or the sweet deliciousness of the Chinese food my family and I ate afterwards, I'm not sure, but I knew I could honestly say that I had an amazing day. One recital concluded. Next up, the NATS Competition auditions in March!


P.S. If you actually read to the end of this, I am so sorry XD)

February 13, 2015
Oh, look, I'm already forgetting to update this. -_- This isn't exactly an update on my life, but more like an apology for my horrid inactivity over the past month. I decided to take a little hiatus so I could focus on school and extracurriculars. Well, I just made this little note to announce that I'm back, and you'll probably see me posting around the forums again. In fact, I'm about to post an "Ask Me" topic, so feel free to stop by and drop whatever questions your little heart desires. Hope to see you around! *bounds away to the Ask Me thread*

March 6, 2015
So recently I have considered changing my forum nickname. The reason for this is that I came to the realization that the word "zealot" carries some negative connotations that I did not previously know of. Also, the name in any context does not really describe me, and is rather pointless. So, I'll be changing my forum nickname to...*insert dramatic music* "Synesthete"! *old professor voice* Synesthete is a term for people with the rare mental disorder synesthesia, which casues those affected to perceive certain sensory stimuli with another sense (for example, seeing colors when you hear music, or experiencing tastes when you touch something. I myself am a synesthete so the name does fit me and, as far as I know of, doesn't have any negative meanings! Huzzah!

July 17th, 2015
Holy crap, it's been over four months?! Well, I'm just writing this to say that I'M BACK! It has been a long, eventful four months and I really don't feel like going over EVERYTHING that's happened (mostly more singing stuff), so I'm just gonna leave it at this: I'm so excited to be back on FeralHeart, and I can't wait to see everyone again! I might even make it to the Summer Party this evening...
« Last Edit: July 19, 2015, 04:56:57 pm by x+Synesthete+x »
It's been three freakin' years and I have no idea what I'm doing.

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Re: Zealot's Journal
« Reply #1 on: January 05, 2015, 01:17:07 am »
I really like your bio!It's casual and simple :) I am very sorry for you losses.Also,I had a hard year due to some who passed away...we can't do nothing but move on.

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Re: Zealot's Journal [Updated 1/5/15]
« Reply #2 on: January 06, 2015, 04:50:56 am »
Thanks! I just wanted to introduce this journal and maybe give some hope for this year :3
It's been three freakin' years and I have no idea what I'm doing.

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Re: Zealot's Journal [Updated 2/13/15]
« Reply #3 on: February 16, 2015, 07:49:21 pm »
Bumpity boppity boo.
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Re: Zealot's Journal [Updated 2/13/15]
« Reply #4 on: February 16, 2015, 07:59:35 pm »
Splendid journal/bio, m'lass.
However, I am very sorry for your losses and the unfortunate events that have been occuring.
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Re: Zealot's Journal [Updated 3/6/15-Changing my forum name...]
« Reply #5 on: March 06, 2015, 08:28:01 pm »
*crashes journal through the recent topics* Bump!
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Re: Zeals Journal [Updated 7/17/15-I'm back!!]
« Reply #6 on: July 17, 2015, 09:02:44 pm »
Bump.
It's been three freakin' years and I have no idea what I'm doing.