Sorry to hear you're feeling this way, but I completely understand where you're coming from and the feelings behind that. It's tough to feel like you belong when you're used to something else. Hopefully you can eventually find a place where you can feel at home one day, even if that place still isn't Feral Heart. This game is not everyone's cup of tea, but there's been so much/too much negative impacts within the game to even say that comfortably.
Take care on the path you next choose to follow, and thank you for the contributions you have made whilst being here, whether they be big or small.