Joel frowned a gripped the railing tighter and his knuckles began to get ghostly white. 'One life lost to save many, that ain't too much to ask now is it?' His face went white and it felt like his breath exploded out of his lungs like a balloon. Letting the railing go, he sneered and grabbed his little brother by his shirt. "Tommy, is it too much when I've lost my God Damned daughter?" he whispered, holding his face close to his. He let go of his collar and spat at the ground, turning his back to him. Breathing in slowly, he slammed his fist against the barred railing and turned around, eyes aligned. "I haven't told Ellie I have killed Marlene, no. I don't care if the whole world was counting on this girl's survival, she's basically my daughter. You wouldn't have let this happened to Sarah.." he said under his breath, voice rising so he was audible. "Ellie wouldn't want to die, and I'm sure of it." Joel spit once more, this time over the edge. Frowning, he looked into his little brother's eyes. "This.. 'girl' means everything to me. If you can't respect that, then we'll be on our way," he said in a growl, breathing deeply. "The fireflies ain't what they say they are." Joel grabbed Tommy's collar once more, this time a lot firmer. "You ain't got the slightest clue what it's like to loose someone," Joel spluttered, chest heaving with every breath.