After seeing your deviantArt journal, I feel the utmost sympathy for you and what's been happening/is happening in your life. I haven't been around to get to know you as a person or know you just a little bit at all because of my inactivity, but I wish you the best of luck with your future and that you can pull through all of the problems that come your way.
I shall keep my opinion to myself as this is not in my right to say anything against you and your views on the FH community and the online world in general. Although if you do decide to return, you shall certainly be welcomed back with open arms- if I ever see you again I may just try and talk to you, even if it's just a friendly hello.
Farewell, SammyTheCorgi.