Game & Forum Discussion => Game Discussion => Topic started by: Krankheit on October 09, 2017, 11:02:30 pm
Title: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 09, 2017, 11:02:30 pm
So... I left the game for a few months, saying it'd be for good because I couldn't stand how toxic it was. Then I reinstalled it and came back one day, just wanting maybe something to watch or someone to talk to. I came back and was oddly welcomed, although I'm known to be rude and unlikable. I made a lot of friends the first day back and they hung around me and talked to me and for once in my life, Feral Heart felt like it's old self. I think that was the first day I was actually tolerant? Usually I bicker but just knowing people liked me changed that for the time being, I guess.
Second and third were just as good, making more friends and really having a good time. For the first time I had more than one person on my Discord.
I don't know if I'm just depressed today or if this community is really just as bad as I left it. I came on in the morning and had a great time watching a friend of mine roleplay so I guess I had high expectations when I came back. Little did I know, huh? I saw two people who my friends, both in game and Discord. Sort of just got ignored by them but I get it, they were talking others and what not. I try to get into conversation when I can but for a person who doesn't like Overwatch, what do I do? Then of course, someone who I thought I could make amends with ends up being super passive aggressive to me comes on and talks to them. I sort of just faded out at that point because I feel like said person will attack me.
For some reason I felt really lonely today. I wanted someone, especially to vent to. I can't directly talk to to people so I tried hinting in movies but no one watches those anymore. I moved in and out of the Local range because I just started getting angry. I'd move to the lake (this is the Grounds) and try to bottle up my anger and come back. I mean, I'm desperate for friends at this point but they're just a little too much. Some other friend comes on, I shoo them off of me when they approach because I feel horrible. Then she talks about how lonely she feels and I say I feel the same yet, everyone, even that alleged friend continues to ignore me. Then she says she feels unloved for I don't know why and I say I can relate. Passive aggressive girl sends love to only that person. How cold hearted.
You know, I've actually been trying to get better. I'm normally short tempered and I developed a hate for many things on this game. But, I don't want to feel that way. So I came back hoping I could change that and for once it felt real, like I can actually do that but Christ, I was kicked when I was down. I don't know how I can compete with that. Because I've been doing great and thought I could be friends with people I didn't like. For the most part it worked and then crashed, flaming.
It must be hard for ya'll out there with tons of friends. I made one friend that I'm keeping, but they're mostly busy or a different time zone since they're only on in the mornings.
I suppose my weak spots been hit and I just wanted someone to talk to. I've done more than just hinting and God, might as well punch me.
I know it's partly me. I'm easy to hate. I'm fresh kill. I'm just a wrench in everyone's plan. I'm sorry for showing up. But it was just uncalled for, especially after that short, VERY short streak of a good time. For one time in my life I thought I connected to people on this game. It was a miracle me because I thought I could make myself a better person and be accepted. I wanted to erase my nasty behavior but God, does this place bring out the worst in me.
I just don't know what to do. It's like an abusive relationship. "Yeah, he hit me... but you just don't know his sweet side."
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Azurain on October 10, 2017, 12:11:20 am
Hey, I don't have a ton of friends here on FeralHeart. I have a few pretty close ones, but a lot of the time they're offline or off doing something else in game so there are good chunks of time I sit on the hill alone. I don't let it bother me a lot. The fact is, you're going to meet a lot of people here in FH that will seem to blow you off, be rude, yada yada. That's how it is. So you gotta adapt. Go make new friends. Not all of us are like that. Heck, come sit and talk to me. I'm a bit quiet and shy at first but once you get me going you'll be begging me to shut up. xD
Being angry about it isn't gonna get you anywhere. I know it's hard. Heck, I still have times where I get mad about it. But honestly, it doesn't do you any good. The point of FeralHeart is to make friends. So you gotta do just that. And eventually, it'll all feel much more welcoming. ^^
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Hakumi on October 10, 2017, 12:34:44 am
Agreed, Truth be told, I legit don't have many friends. I have a very, and I mean very small circle of mates ( really good friends ) that I like to chat and hang around with. I'm a pretty anti-social person so I can be a terrible conversationalist. I'm too worried about boring someone to death or something, but once I get to know the person more I can be a pretty down to earth, funny / goofy floof. To be honest, you shouldn't try and please those that don't wish to give you the time of day. If that's how they feel about it, nej point in staying in that sort of toxic relationship. It's nice to know that the whole isn't really out to get you and not everyone will think the same way. Shoot, I don't even know you, but you sound pretty darn interesting that's for sure. I've only known ya from the posts and such but even then I don't really judge ya.
Like it was stated above, this game was about making friends, not only that, just having fun. If you're not having fun then the experience can be a sour one and you'll just keep going deeper and deeper into that hole. Just gotta keep reminding yourself that the world isn't out to get you, there's some floofs out there that can relate to you and actually want to get to know you, but might be timid to even approach anyone. There's more than one person on this Earth and everyone is different. With some time and patience, you'll find a nice little bud and be happy with yourself more. Even now, I am actually doing my best to hold to the ones that I've come to consider as mates or even family and I know they're probably doing the same <3 So, I wish you luck m'friend c:
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Warriorstrike on October 10, 2017, 01:09:41 am
It sounds like you've been going through a lot, friend. I'll add some of my thoughts here. Much of this comes from personal experience, some speculation.~
Losing a friend doesn't necessarily mean you have done something wrong. Doing something right wouldn't necessarily procure that friendship. Sometimes people come into your life for a brief time-- share experiences with you, teach you something, leave an imprint on you-- and then fade out. Friendship can take work from both parties-- it's a two way street, after all. But I would try to focus less on the friends you lost and more from what you've learned from them, to make new friends in the future. This doesn't mean we don't have flaws or parts of our character that we shouldn't work on, but just because you've found yourself reacting to people in a certain way doesn't make you a bad person. Sometimes it takes a little self-evaluation and conquering mistakes to reach a point where we feel happy with how we react to those around us, and to ourselves. There is always room for improvement, and if you think there is an aspect of yourself that causes people to react in a certain way, then you're already a step ahead in being capable of recognizing that in yourself, but be wary of trying to change yourself to make people like you.
Loneliness is a tricky thing because it puts us in a position to lower our standards and accept anything that comes our way, even if it's potential harmful to us, just for the sake of having company. I cannot quite determine how you feel-- as that is something you must internally look toward-- but if that sounds like something you might be feeling, my advice would be to focus less on trying to gather friends for having company and more for giving it. An "I want to be someone's friend" vs. "I want them to be my friend" kind of thing. c:
There's a difference between enjoying something more because you have someone there to experience that event with you and feeling as though you need someone just to stand on your own feet without falling down. If you feel like you cannot find any enjoyment without other people enjoying those things with you, I would try to find something that you enjoy doing alone. There is a lot you can learn from sharing your own company, and sometimes there will be a gap in your life where you don't have anyone else to bounce ideas off of, share a funny video with, or express your darkest secrets to, but in that quiet space bears the benefits of walking through your day without needing someone to be there. This doesn't have to make you cold and careless, but it can offer you a chance to appreciate the potential for personal growth through the hardiships of feeling alone. Abandonment becomes solitude when you no longer expect someone to hold you up.
You are not quite abandoned if you have yourself. Perhaps, that's a bit of a large speculation, but it's a perspective I think is worth considering. You can have other people but lose touch with yourself, and sometimes you can lose other people but you find yourself. There's a sweet spot of having both friends and enjoying to do things on your own, but sometimes there will be too much of one and too little of the other, but it all helps you grow.
If you need someone to talk to, though, my inbox is always open. <3
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 10, 2017, 01:10:40 am
Hey, I don't have a ton of friends here on FeralHeart. I have a few pretty close ones, but a lot of the time they're offline or off doing something else in game so there are good chunks of time I sit on the hill alone. I don't let it bother me a lot. The fact is, you're going to meet a lot of people here in FH that will seem to blow you off, be rude, yada yada. That's how it is. So you gotta adapt. Go make new friends. Not all of us are like that. Heck, come sit and talk to me. I'm a bit quiet and shy at first but once you get me going you'll be begging me to shut up. xD
Being angry about it isn't gonna get you anywhere. I know it's hard. Heck, I still have times where I get mad about it. But honestly, it doesn't do you any good. The point of FeralHeart is to make friends. So you gotta do just that. And eventually, it'll all feel much more welcoming. ^^
Yeah, well when someone like me has to bottle all their anger inside because all of this game is four people scream about Overwatch week in and week out. Also, I'd love to talk to you Azura but most of the time a certain someone who is super bratty to me is sitting by you and the last thing I want is drama with her. I suppose I can whisper. But I've been trying to keep it cool. That's what I've been trying since day one. I actually convinced myself to not write a pretty sour leaving note on the forums and that was a good choice, obviously since I came back. I have been holding back for far too long, though. But it's really hard to not take it out on everyone when there's only the same people talking in Local all the time. Yes, I have met nice people, I've met one right now. They comforted me and sat by me. But the issue is that their kind is 2% of this community. The nicer people are generally roleplaying or super quiet.
But I can't handle being alone for too long. I'm secretly social but way too sensitive.
Agreed, Truth be told, I legit don't have many friends. I have a very, and I mean very small circle of mates ( really good friends ) that I like to chat and hang around with. I'm a pretty anti-social person so I can be a terrible conversationalist. I'm too worried about boring someone to death or something, but once I get to know the person more I can be a pretty down to earth, funny / goofy floof. To be honest, you shouldn't try and please those that don't wish to give you the time of day. If that's how they feel about it, nej point in staying in that sort of toxic relationship. It's nice to know that the whole isn't really out to get you and not everyone will think the same way. Shoot, I don't even know you, but you sound pretty darn interesting that's for sure. I've only known ya from the posts and such but even then I don't really judge ya.
Like it was stated above, this game was about making friends, not only that, just having fun. If you're not having fun then the experience can be a sour one and you'll just keep going deeper and deeper into that hole. Just gotta keep reminding yourself that the world isn't out to get you, there's some floofs out there that can relate to you and actually want to get to know you, but might be timid to even approach anyone. There's more than one person on this Earth and everyone is different. With some time and patience, you'll find a nice little bud and be happy with yourself more. Even now, I am actually doing my best to hold to the ones that I've come to consider as mates or even family and I know they're probably doing the same <3 So, I wish you luck m'friend c:
It's real hard to tell myself that. You gotta understand that these people were super nice to me and then all the sudden cut me off. It's real hard not to feel abandoned. It's especially irritating when /someone/ openly leaves me out of everything just because they're salty about me. I tried to be nice to them, believe me, but then they very passive aggressively shoved themselves into every conversation I had and belittled me on a subtle, but obvious level. I can't help but be like,
"ok. obviously you are on the same page I am."
I just had to vent. I had to let it out because while it isn't a majority of the community, it's the loudest.
It sounds like you've been going through a lot, friend. I'll add some of my thoughts here. Much of this comes from personal experience, some speculation.~
Losing a friend doesn't necessarily mean you have done something wrong. Doing something right wouldn't necessarily procure that friendship. Sometimes people come into your life for a brief time-- share experiences with you, teach you something, leave an imprint on you-- and then fade out. Friendship can take work from both parties-- it's a two way street, after all. But I would try to focus less on the friends you lost and more from what you've learned from them, to make new friends in the future. This doesn't mean we don't have flaws or parts of our character that we shouldn't work on, but just because you've found yourself reacting to people in a certain way doesn't make you a bad person. Sometimes it takes a little self-evaluation and conquering mistakes to reach a point where we feel happy with how we react to those around us, and to ourselves. There is always room for improvement, and if you think there is an aspect of yourself that causes people to react in a certain way, then you're already a step ahead in being capable of recognizing that in yourself, but be wary of trying to change yourself to make people like you.
Loneliness is a tricky thing because it puts us in a position to lower our standards and accept anything that comes our way, even if it's potential harmful to us, just for the sake of having company. I cannot quite determine how you feel-- as that is something you must internally look toward-- but if that sounds like something you might be feeling, my advice would be to focus less on trying to gather friends for having company and more for giving it. An "I want to be someone's friend" vs. "I want them to be my friend" kind of thing. c:
There's a difference between enjoying something more because you have someone there to experience that event with you and feeling as though you need someone just to stand on your own feet without falling down. If you feel like you cannot find any enjoyment without other people enjoying those things with you, I would try to find something that you enjoy doing alone. There is a lot you can learn from sharing your own company, and sometimes there will be a gap in your life where you don't have anyone else to bounce ideas off of, share a funny video with, or express your darkest secrets to, but in that quiet space bears the benefits of walking through your day without needing someone to be there. This doesn't have to make you cold and careless, but it can offer you a chance to appreciate the potential for personal growth through the hardiships of feeling alone. Abandonment becomes solitude when you no longer expect someone to hold you up.
You are not quite abandoned if you have yourself. Perhaps, that's a bit of a large speculation, but it's a perspective I think it worth considering. You can have other people but lose touch with yourself, and sometimes you can lose other people but you find yourself. There's a sweet spot of having both friends and enjoying to do things on your own, but sometimes there will be too much of one and too little of the other, but it all helps you grow.
If you need someone to talk to, though, my inbox is always open. <3
I realize that, however, again, when the only people who talk are these people then I really have a tight choice. I can hardly talk to people alone because I don't know what's a good conversation. I can really only talk when I find out what people are like or what they like beforehand (even if a small amount) and then I can kick off a conversation.
To be honest, I can't help but be desperate. I've only had one friend for the longest time, and heck, I almost lost her a day or two ago so I have to admit I got a bit insane. It really made me realize that I need another good friend or two because if I lose my only one I have nothing. And to some this may seem silly- but I depend on others. I used to depend on role playing to keep my head straight and drawing and writing sort of helps but all in all I need someone I know will be there to listen or what not. It's complicated.
Yeah, I had that. Roleplaying. But even on a roleplaying game nobody wanted me and the people who did would either never respond or I got into arguments with. I have drawing and writing but according to everyone humans are social creatures and you know, I like to talk to somebody. I'll watch videos while drawing, I'll watch television or go for a walk or something but sometimes I want to hang out with people.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: FlyingGrass on October 10, 2017, 03:28:31 am
I have very few friends, and the only friends I have are busy most of the day(I understand, IRL comes before FH), most of the day I just sit around saying "Hello" to those whom say hello to me. For me, friend making is sometimes as simple as roleplaying with someone, but I may just be lucky, or I may just be thinking that anyone who talks to me is a friend of mine. I don't randomly talk to people unless they randomly talk to me, and if they're sitting/curling by me then I think that I can freely start conversations with them whenever.
A short story(Updated):
Back in 2014: I had a friend who asked me my gender and I didn't respond which caused me to lose that friend, which didn't sadden me, but the questions about personal info is the reason I don't have many friends.
Ever since, I thought "I don't need friends, friends ask me about my personal info" and spent my days without friends, I thought friends were too hard to keep, I thought friends weren't needed at all.
2014, I frequently played both FH and DragonsDen, still not making friends, I got a mate from Mate Center but it didn't last long. I lost trust in other people, I once had someone ask me to share passwords together.
I stopped playing both games in September/October 2015, but not because of lack of friends, I was still fine without them, and oddly I wasn't bored at all.
In 2017: I returned to FH and would spend my time just wandering around custom maps(Chevalville and IceConcert), I found people in one of the maps once, which surprised me as I thought the custom maps were long forgotten(In 2014 I didn't find many people at all in custom maps).
One month later, I found The Grounds, but all I would do there is run across the path, and no-one stopped to talk to me back then. Another month later, I stuck near the Lonely Cave portal more frequently, and I found someone who sat at the wall all the time, I asked them "Isn't it boring sitting in one spot all the time?" and I can't remember how they responded, but they responded. "I finally spoke to someone!" I thought. "But friends are gonna be hard to make"
My first time meeting a user whom is a friend of mine: Whilst sitting by the Lonely Cave portal, I found a canine with a gray pelt and green markings and hair, and I(Being a coincidence-loving person, I was unaware of the fact that copying existed) thought "Wow! The very first character I made is a canine with the same colors! And those same markings!" I logged onto that character and sat nearby(Back then I thought the person would somehow suddenly start to know that it was my first character, but today I realize that the person might not have been thinking what I thought they were thinking.). I still see the same user coming online to this day. (When I look back at that moment, I think "My was I stupid to not change my char to something not similar to the other char"). I'm not mad at the user, everything about now and before that moment that I remember just screams at me saying the user wasn't copying me, that was the first time the user saw my grey-pelted wolf that has green markings, that was the first time I saw the user online, that was the first time the user saw me.
Ever since I made friends in FH, I thought "Having friends isn't so bad!", I liked having friends but I didn't go too overboard, I didn't want to make more friends than I could handle(Because I think that I should stick nearby friends all the time I can when they're online, and I still kept the thought that friends were hard to keep).
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Hakumi on October 10, 2017, 03:58:30 am
It's real hard to tell myself that. You gotta understand that these people were super nice to me and then all the sudden cut me off. It's real hard not to feel abandoned. It's especially irritating when /someone/ openly leaves me out of everything just because they're salty about me. I tried to be nice to them, believe me, but then they very passive aggressively shoved themselves into every conversation I had and belittled me on a subtle, but obvious level. I can't help but be like,
"ok. obviously you are on the same page I am."
I just had to vent. I had to let it out because while it isn't a majority of the community, it's the loudest.
Oh nej, I see where you're coming from, especially when you think that you finally made a connection and then it just... stops. Especially in IRL or even in a game like FH. You're going to run into these sort of bumps in the road along the way nej matter what game or what you're doing in life. I've had my fair shares of that, but I was too focused with a mindset of trying to please every / anyone that it didn't do me any good and the relationship wasn't worth it anymore. That's how the world works and it's nice to vent and let out what you're feeling inside, can actually clear your mind, give you a sense of control and especially reevaluate your choices / other people more clearly. I try not to let that abandonment feeling get to me too much, because I try to remember and especially hope that at least someone is out there for me, someone I can go to and actually spill what I need to and I have come across said people so who knows, what you're doing now? People responding to this thread and giving you their insights and experiences? Ja, you have some potential buds here that's willing to help ya if you want to make the effort as well and give it another go c: Clearly I can't control / say what you should or shouldn't do... But at least keep the thought opened ~ And like Nynx, if you need someone to just sit and listen, my inbox is always opened <3
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Lucius on October 10, 2017, 05:48:46 am
If there's any advice that I can give you, it'll be coming from my own experience, so take it with a grain of salt:
Everyone plays this game for themselves and they will most likely tailor their stay in FH to their advantage. You should do the same; talking to a "friend" shouldn't be a chore and it should absolutely not involve you being completely sidelined for the whole conversation. If you have nothing in common with the group you're in, then leave. Go find someone who you can talk to about other things than Overwatch; they exist. Ignore the passive aggressive girl, or block her; it's clear she doesn't want to make amends and letting her get to you just makes your day worse in the end. There are many people here who will talk to you for a whole day and then disappear for a week or two, and plenty more who won't; it just depends on how the dice roll.
As for conversations; I've had plenty of people come up to me and start a conversation about my character's name, preset, biography, etc. I can understand that being more reserved can make it harder, but even just sending a whisper to someone and complimenting their character's story can be the start of an interesting conversation. And if they don't reply, then you haven't really lost anything for trying.
In the end, this game is meant for your enjoyment, not as something that makes you angry or distraught. If someone is affecting you in a negative way, then you can always tell them and leave, or block them if they persist. If you have nothing to talk to with someone, then why would you force yourself to stay with them? If I wanted to talk to a wall, I wouldn't need company. Don't put yourself in positions that will make you feel worse after playing this game.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Kuri on October 10, 2017, 06:30:12 pm
You want friends? Seen you around but i got the impression you didn't like people.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Jango_Fett on October 10, 2017, 07:17:43 pm
let the friendship occur naturally, don't make it your only pursuit
this kinda thing happened to me a lot back in the day(2014 was a great year, amirite?), but trust me it eventually blows over.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 10, 2017, 10:13:30 pm
The friendship was good for a few days where I was involved in the conversations. It just abruptly came a day where they left me out of everything and kicked me when I was down. Sure, I stuck around in hopes they'd come to realize how rude they were being but in the end I fled to the lake.
I vented here because I had nowhere else to go. I was lucky enough to stumble across someone who wanted to know why I was alone and lifted my spirits.
@Kuri: Yes, I know I run from you a lot. I don't tend to bond with people who sit next to me in silence. But I think in this case I felt awkward because of the in-character roleplaying I didn't quite understand. No idea. I'll try to open up and I'm sorry if I've made you feel bad in anyway. Sometimes I run to avoid saying the wrong things because I end up making things a lot worse than they begin.
But anyway, at least it turned up where I and four or five other people chased someone around the map and just had a good time. The biggest turn off of this game is how low it can be and suddenly spike. The roller coaster's just a bit too steep but this is a childhood game and it isn't easy to give up. I've decided to just stay by the lake. It's away from the Overwatch fans and still gets some people every now and then so it's not too bad. That girl apparently did want to make amends but was showing those signs in the worst way possible, I suppose.
But I think another reason why I vented to the community is simply because... this is what it feels like everyday. The same people talking in Local, the same fandoms screaming out of control, and people so sour that I've become one of them. I don't feel safe here. And yes, there are plenty of people out there who are kind and would help me out but it's a bit strange that I have to run to the forums to find that out, because the forums is less tainted than the game. I don't mean to sound rude. This game is great but a lot of the people-- it's changed. The population is declining and old users are grown up and moved on or can barely come onto it anymore. It's become dry.
I guess it's just me but I really get awful vibes when I come on. Why do I keep logging on, though? Because of those spikes, pretty much. There's always that one day that's really good but I have to go through a world of boredom or pain to surpass it.
I'm really trying to make the best of this. I want to change this opinion but when the only people who talk are these types of people then I can't help but feel this way. Sure, I'm overreacting, but back in 2012 it was a whole different world. It had it's fair share of rude people but I guess there was more diversity and there was a place for everyone. Every once and a while I feel like I'm not allowed to be here. I have a few friends to remind me otherwise, luckily, but not all days are sunny.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Jango_Fett on October 11, 2017, 02:35:43 am
I'm really trying to make the best of this. I want to change this opinion but when the only people who talk are these types of people then I can't help but feel this way. Sure, I'm overreacting, but back in 2012 it was a whole different world. It had it's fair share of rude people but I guess there was more diversity and there was a place for everyone. Every once and a while I feel like I'm not allowed to be here. I have a few friends to remind me otherwise, luckily, but not all days are sunny.
Hey man,
I've felt the same way for a very long time about this fair game/community. It's actually why I left for, what, over a year? A year and a half? Ironic since this community prides itself on inclusion and being welcoming. I don't mean to sound like a sour sue but to be completely honest with you, this sentiment you're feeling is not at all, nor should it be surprising considering the current state of the community server-side.
This kind of thing happens on a regular basis, even though it shouldn't.
Can't really think of much to do to prevent it other than, vigilance and cutting down toxicity and overly passive aggressiveness before it gets bad.
Back in the sweet ol' Summer of 2013 things were great. I'm sure it was similar to 2012. It's not like that anymore. Apart from the fact that people grew up, this shouldn't be the case.
I'm glad I'm not the only one who gets bad vibes whenever I'd log onto the server. Even when I was on the forums I'd get this overwhelming feeling of ostracization and hostility. That's why I bloody bloomin' left. Couldn't take the heat anymore. Now I'm back and I hear that the thing I left for is still going on. Absolute bloody madness. In no dimension is this okay by any means, no matter the community.
man that was rambly. i'll edit this in the morning hot damn.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 11, 2017, 11:27:45 am
It's nice to finally find someone else who agrees. I mean, a lot do but you're at the same level where you've experienced it, left, and came back to find it didn't change. I didn't leave for a year; a few months, but that's even more disappointing. Again, the only reason I've been on again because I still truly believe this can change and there's still that dying side of this game that is great. It's bad when we have to work to find the good side of a community but it's not like anything can be done about it at this point. Wait a minute, do know a possible solution to get new members coming in but it's never going to happen. No offense to the administrators because there's a valid reason behind it, I know, but a game lingering around less than 300 people a day when it used to be 800 is a very significant drop. Opening the registration completely would open the doors for yes, multiple accounts of people, sadly, but possibly a swarm of new members which we desperately need at this point.
Because I'm pretty sure people will get sick of me spamming about taking people's femurs. I shouldn't be the only one talking by the lake, and it shouldn't be the same thing every day by the main part of the Grounds. There's other maps, yes, but the only one where I know there are people is Ficho Tunnels and those are mostly ones of different languages. All the others maps are for roleplaying.
Okay, but I did notice one thing that has changed in the months I left: there's been a significant drop in roleplayers. I used to linger around the lake and roleplay when I felt like it and others around me would too, whether directly or indirectly. There was always some roleplay every day, even if it was short. Most of the time it was with wolves and cats, respectively, and they'd just be writing to pass the time and hope to fish up some others to mingle with. I get that I've only been back for a few days, but I've only seen one roleplay-- at 6 AM. I have to leave for school around that time so twenty minutes of gameplay I want to see is very short. But my point is, nobody roleplays anymore. It's all morphed to groups but groups are a struggle for me. I can only handle a few people at once. Also, most group roleplays are wolf and warrior cat or pride roleplays which are things I'm not into anymore. That doesn't mean I don't like them because I loved watching them by the lake, but that's just not my style. But now, hardly anymore roleplays by the lake and usually scare them off because I keep grabbing capri sun and popcorn (gross combo) everytime somebody hints towards a roleplay. They usually run away lmao.
Basically, it's hard to find enjoyable aspect now. It's not anyone's fault. Time changes things, yes, but man-- can't help but ask why. I had left for a few months before the update occured, and game back when it was set in place. I don't know what the community was like when it was nearing that, but I do know it was starting to shrivel though there was still diversity in conversation and open roleplays galore. I don't know if some people couldn't figure out how to install the update or just grew up and got bored of the game. Either or, the community I used to know crashed. There's a few left but they're hard to find and overshadowed by the same people screaming the same thing about the same fandoms over and over. I have my reasons for being so salty.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Kuri on October 11, 2017, 06:40:30 pm
So all this text actually means... "People uninspired, need fresh faces". Well yeah..
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: sanrio on October 11, 2017, 07:19:25 pm
I'm really not the best with words, so if this is a bit repetitive and boring I'm sorry, I just want to help.
I'm not going to say I can relate to you with everything, as my experience have been different from yours, but I definitely feel the pain that you're feeling. I'm the type of person that feeds off of attention, if I don't get attention, I become salty and start attacking most if not everyone around me. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty of friends that I know care for me and care about my well being, but when I see them directly talking to someone else and instantly cut me out of the conversation, I just get really salty and annoyed. Most times I will probably message them how I feel, plenty of times it's worked, and I'll get the spotlight put back onto me, but recently that just hasn't been happening. I've started to take myself away from all of my FeralHeart friends, and just stay with me 2 best friends and my girlfriend, yes, this is probably the best for me, but I get way less attention and I feel as if I come off more salty and aggressive to random strangers.
I've read through every single comment on this thread, and I guess it's not only me that feels this way. I'm not that much of an emotional type when it comes to speaking to people who need help, but if you ever need someone to talk to then you can message me anytime. I'm on the FH Forums basically 24/7, and if I don't respond in-game or via PM, then you can add me on Discord.
I'm pretty sure everyone, and I mean everyone, has gone through this type of feeling, just some more than others. I know this is really cheesy to say, but it will get better. You'll soon find people you really connect with, heck, it's taken me multiple years to find my best friends.
If you ever want to talk feel free to message me.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 11, 2017, 08:41:02 pm
They're not uninspired. There just one track minded.
Thank you, Lvgic. I'll hardly ever approach anyone unless they're speaking first but I'll keep you the others in mind if I need a helping hand. But yeah, I know myself as the Salt Shaker. That's my role on my Discord group, for God's sake. I know I'm going to get mad but if it's from a level that others could get upset from then it's worth mentioning. My best friend and I met on this game and saw it sort of crawl into fetal position and slowly whither away. It's upsetting to the both of us and she tries her best to help me, as do I but sometimes she's not around. She was mad about the about and I understood her, but I still wanted to be apart of the game.
It's just when the insides of it are all... flattened out and burned to exhaustion then it leads to a very dry game. Most of the time I do something else while playing. Yes, of course there are rounded people but they're the quietest voice. 'Sides, if you're not into the latest fandoms then ya might as well leave. //legit the vibes I get
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: sanrio on October 11, 2017, 10:06:17 pm
They're not uninspired. There just one track minded.
Thank you, Lvgic. I'll hardly ever approach anyone unless they're speaking first but I'll keep you the others in mind if I need a helping hand. But yeah, I know myself as the Salt Shaker. That's my role on my Discord group, for God's sake. I know I'm going to get mad but if it's from a level that others could get upset from then it's worth mentioning. My best friend and I met on this game and saw it sort of crawl into fetal position and slowly whither away. It's upsetting to the both of us and she tries her best to help me, as do I but sometimes she's not around. She was mad about the about and I understood her, but I still wanted to be apart of the game.
It's just when the insides of it are all... flattened out and burned to exhaustion then it leads to a very dry game. Most of the time I do something else while playing. Yes, of course there are rounded people but they're the quietest voice. 'Sides, if you're not into the latest fandoms then ya might as well leave. //legit the vibes I get
I completely agree with your statement on the fandoms. The most I see are Overwatch, and heck, I've only played it around 3 times so I'm basically clueless (if I'm being honest, I don't see what the big hype about it is, it's literally like COD just with characters). But yeah, most people that tend to be the most caring and affectionate towards friends are the quiet ones, from what I've learned, I guess it just takes time, even I'm trying to still find some friends that I can hang around with on FH since I don't Roleplay anymore.
I wish you the best of luck with all your problems. I hate to see people go through stuff like this, if you ever need to vent in a more private matter, as I said, you can message me, think of it as a mini-councilor. Hopefully, things start to brighten up for the both of us sometime soon.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Ryval on October 12, 2017, 12:19:11 am
I believe I can relate to you on part of this. I've played this game for about... maybe... 6 years? When I checked my old account registration date it was back in 2011, and I can agree with you the community here is... Well it almost gives a 'fake Welcome.' I can't say that I entirely hate the community because I've made some very good friends on here... But they saw the same thing that I did and they left the game because of it - But I stayed because I just couldn't leave, really. I did take a break from the game for about a half a year and then finally decided to change my username and come back - but the reason for that was because a lot of people I did befriend... Didn't turn out to be good friends at all. They back-stabbed me and emotionally abused me. Heck even manipulated my thoughts. So now I have so much trouble being outgoing with people on here because I'm always afraid of the same things happening over and over to me; I don't want history to repeat itself, I just want loyal, caring friends. I also have bad social anxiety so I get attacks very, very quickly. I always assume somebody is thinking bad about me or is going to judge me in some way. Due to having that happen, I've turned practically into an introvert and only spoken when I felt a true need to. The people that did befriend me were people that actually were kind enough to approach me and listen to my issues and actually give me advice... Some others just were plain aggressive towards me and would not believe me if I tried to apologize for anything I did to them in the past. I'm a lot smarter now and I know my rights from wrongs, but at the same time I feel like people are staring at me with negative thoughts in their heads. It's hard for me to trust people, and sometimes I tend to take a lot of what people say harder than someone normally would. I'd break down and log off. I don't know... I've been called weak for being cursed with anxiety but heck, what can I do about it? It's just there, eating at me. It's hard for me to act like a normal person.
So, yeah, this is my share on this... Even though my experience probably is different.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 12, 2017, 02:32:22 am
They're not uninspired. There just one track minded.
Thank you, Lvgic. I'll hardly ever approach anyone unless they're speaking first but I'll keep you the others in mind if I need a helping hand. But yeah, I know myself as the Salt Shaker. That's my role on my Discord group, for God's sake. I know I'm going to get mad but if it's from a level that others could get upset from then it's worth mentioning. My best friend and I met on this game and saw it sort of crawl into fetal position and slowly whither away. It's upsetting to the both of us and she tries her best to help me, as do I but sometimes she's not around. She was mad about the about and I understood her, but I still wanted to be apart of the game.
It's just when the insides of it are all... flattened out and burned to exhaustion then it leads to a very dry game. Most of the time I do something else while playing. Yes, of course there are rounded people but they're the quietest voice. 'Sides, if you're not into the latest fandoms then ya might as well leave. //legit the vibes I get
I completely agree with your statement on the fandoms. The most I see are Overwatch, and heck, I've only played it around 3 times so I'm basically clueless (if I'm being honest, I don't see what the big hype about it is, it's literally like COD just with characters). But yeah, most people that tend to be the most caring and affectionate towards friends are the quiet ones, from what I've learned, I guess it just takes time, even I'm trying to still find some friends that I can hang around with on FH since I don't Roleplay anymore.
I wish you the best of luck with all your problems. I hate to see people go through stuff like this, if you ever need to vent in a more private matter, as I said, you can message me, think of it as a mini-councilor. Hopefully, things start to brighten up for the both of us sometime soon.
It's a rip off of Team Fortress 2 with more characters and controversy. People can like it but honestly, it's turning into Five Nights at Freddy's, My Little Pony, and Sonic the Hedgehog kind of toxic. It's more prominent on Feral Heart than anything, I feel, because the internet hardly mentions Overwatch over the millions of look alikes. Now I get it. I like Happy Tree Friends, a low grade animated YouTube series with flat characters and the most basic plot possible. I think of it as much more and morphed it into something different in my mind, but besides the point, I don't chant my theories and my love for it everywhere I go. Is it fine to do that when it turns up? Of course! Everyday? WHY? It makes me want to rip my hair out, especially when it's things I don't agree with being constantly shoved down my throat.
I believe I can relate to you on part of this. I've played this game for about... maybe... 6 years? When I checked my old account registration date it was back in 2011, and I can agree with you the community here is... Well it almost gives a 'fake Welcome.' I can't say that I entirely hate the community because I've made some very good friends on here... But they saw the same thing that I did and they left the game because of it - But I stayed because I just couldn't leave, really. I did take a break from the game for about a half a year and then finally decided to change my username and come back - but the reason for that was because a lot of people I did befriend... Didn't turn out to be good friends at all. They back-stabbed me and emotionally abused me. Heck even manipulated my thoughts. So now I have so much trouble being outgoing with people on here because I'm always afraid of the same things happening over and over to me; I don't want history to repeat itself, I just want loyal, caring friends. I also have bad social anxiety so I get attacks very, very quickly. I always assume somebody is thinking bad about me or is going to judge me in some way. Due to having that happen, I've turned practically into an introvert and only spoken when I felt a true need to. The people that did befriend me were people that actually were kind enough to approach me and listen to my issues and actually give me advice... Some others just were plain aggressive towards me and would not believe me if I tried to apologize for anything I did to them in the past. I'm a lot smarter now and I know my rights from wrongs, but at the same time I feel like people are staring at me with negative thoughts in their heads. It's hard for me to trust people, and sometimes I tend to take a lot of what people say harder than someone normally would. I'd break down and log off. I don't know... I've been called weak for being cursed with anxiety but heck, what can I do about it? It's just there, eating at me. It's hard for me to act like a normal person.
So, yeah, this is my share on this... Even though my experience probably is different.[/color][/size]
I'm sorry to hear that. I've had friends back stab me both over the internet and in real life, and hell I've done the same. I've been mean to people and I regret it. That's why I'm trying to change; turn over a new leaf and such and such. I get there's going to be people like me out there, who are rude and edgy and such-- but when it seems makes up 80% of the population then it's a problem. The same game that made me learn to roleplay/write made me quit roleplaying. The game I loved to make groups on made me fear joining any group. The game that made me eager to come onto it everyday is now regurgitating the same things over and over.
Yes, I still like this game because I'm venturing off in hopes to find the better side of it. It's practically silent, but it's there.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Hakumi on October 12, 2017, 02:53:59 am
It's nice to finally find someone else who agrees. I mean, a lot do but you're at the same level where you've experienced it, left, and came back to find it didn't change. I didn't leave for a year; a few months, but that's even more disappointing. Again, the only reason I've been on again because I still truly believe this can change and there's still that dying side of this game that is great. It's bad when we have to work to find the good side of a community but it's not like anything can be done about it at this point.
But is it really that bad? From the sounds of it, it's like you want to find the good in the community, but don't really wish to put in anymore effort than what you already have. To be frankly honest, this, seems like something from your perspective ( of course ), while you think one way, someone else is bound to see it differently. When I left, from this community, yes, it was something I chose and yes, I planned on coming back and everything... But I also wanted to give back to said community, for all the things it has done for me.... While, at the same time, I left to give myself an emotional and mental break. I was practically addicted. It got to the point where I was doing the same old thing, day in and day out, not really changing my routine, seeing the same thing over and over... But I chose, to leave, hoping that I can do things that I enjoy doing as well as seeing if my thoughts about the game or the community in general has changed. And it has.. Now, it's easy to pick out the negatives / bad things in something.. but it can be difficult trying to accept the good because you're already do keened and focused on the negatives. Whether you wish to agree, or disagree, that's entirely up to you. When I left, the community ( as anything else in life ) was kinda toxic. I won't lie there. There was fandoms galore ( even after the update ), people complaining about said update ( specifically the maps ) and practically nej one liked what you did. None. Even on the forums. You had a fair share of backstabbers, changes.. the works. But when I came back, I saw that the community , even the forums , has changed. Now, you can say that I clearly overlooked something, but nej. I honestly felt that the community has gotten better in a way. Sure you have your fair share of toxicity but that's if you want to put yourself through that entirely. People were starting to come around to the whole update, fandoms weren't as bad and the roleplays are actually pretty good. Granted, it depends on when and where you happen to be during that session you're on, but there are numerous Roleplayers still happening. Especially in the Tunnels. You just gotta look. But yeah, I saw change and I saw how the activity picked up.. sure, it wasn't much but it was still something and better than nothing.
Wait a minute, do know a possible solution to get new members coming in but it's never going to happen. No offense to the administrators because there's a valid reason behind it, I know, but a game lingering around less than 300 people a day when it used to be 800 is a very significant drop. Opening the registration completely would open the doors for yes, multiple accounts of people, sadly, but possibly a swarm of new members which we desperately need at this point.
I agree, opening the doors to new players can be a nice pick up. Registration is surprisingly opened more than it used to be... And while this idea is good and all, you gotta think about the outcome down the road.. The maps are relatively smaller than the originals ( At least that's what I heard ), and the reason why was so it can help players not lag as much... as well as it not being so empty at the same time.. Granted, there's a download I believe that has the old maps for players to try.. but at the same time.. All these people in all theses maps? It's not necessarily and instantly, going to be a good thing. Not saying it can never happen because the server can only handle but so many people at once... Maybe when there's some more improvement, yeah. But you gotta remember, new faces can equal more and new problems and more and new issues to arise and people complaining about certain things than what's happening now. It's like, the issues you feel like you're going through, might be amplified and it won't be just you that's affected by it, but a majority of players and it might get to the point where people just stop coming on because it might not be worth it anymore.. might not be the Feral - Heart that they remembered, etc.
Because I'm pretty sure people will get sick of me spamming about taking people's femurs. I shouldn't be the only one talking by the lake, and it shouldn't be the same thing every day by the main part of the Grounds. There's other maps, yes, but the only one where I know there are people is Ficho Tunnels and those are mostly ones of different languages. All the others maps are for roleplaying.
Again, perspectives and how you see it. Who knows, it might not actually be the same thing everyday.. and you're not the only one that goes and hangs out by the lake as well. And while you think spamming about stealing femurs may be annoying, it might be amusing to some other people. It might be something they look forward to when it comes to something random being said in the chat. You don't know, y'know? And hej, at least it isn't dead quiet, right?
Okay, but I did notice one thing that has changed in the months I left: there's been a significant drop in roleplayers. I used to linger around the lake and roleplay when I felt like it and others around me would too, whether directly or indirectly. There was always some roleplay every day, even if it was short. Most of the time it was with wolves and cats, respectively, and they'd just be writing to pass the time and hope to fish up some others to mingle with. I get that I've only been back for a few days, but I've only seen one roleplay-- at 6 AM. I have to leave for school around that time so twenty minutes of gameplay I want to see is very short. But my point is, nobody roleplays anymore. It's all morphed to groups but groups are a struggle for me. I can only handle a few people at once. Also, most group roleplays are wolf and warrior cat or pride roleplays which are things I'm not into anymore. That doesn't mean I don't like them because I loved watching them by the lake, but that's just not my style. But now, hardly anymore roleplays by the lake and usually scare them off because I keep grabbing capri sun and popcorn (gross combo) everytime somebody hints towards a roleplay. They usually run away lmao.
Again, really depends on the timezones. Depending on the time of day and the day of the week you'll get a huge wave of roleplayers ... and other days you'll get none, and they don't even have to be in a group on top of that. Sometimes they'll be scattered across the map because any map can be a roleplay spot whether it was 'designed' that way or not. And since you're only on for about 2O minutes, 6AM, that can be late in the night for other people. Lol.
Basically, it's hard to find enjoyable aspect now. It's not anyone's fault. Time changes things, yes, but man-- can't help but ask why. I had left for a few months before the update occured, and game back when it was set in place. I don't know what the community was like when it was nearing that, but I do know it was starting to shrivel though there was still diversity in conversation and open roleplays galore. I don't know if some people couldn't figure out how to install the update or just grew up and got bored of the game. Either or, the community I used to know crashed. There's a few left but they're hard to find and overshadowed by the same people screaming the same thing about the same fandoms over and over. I have my reasons for being so salty.
What you came back to all depends on how you viewed it as. You asked why? But that's like saying, 'Why does it have to change?' Whether it be good or bad, time keeps going and waits for nej one. As we get older we tend to mature in our own way, good or bad. We have different outlooks and we truly can't help that. Whether you outlook is a good or bad one, you're the one that's judging it all ( Not saying this in a negative manner ).
But again, whatever happens from here on out, I wish you the greatest luck regardless. If you feel like you're doing too much or trying to fool yourself into thinking something is there, then it's not worth it if it's making you more and more miserable. Sometimes it takes years to be able to view a point or move away from something. You coming back, hoping to see change ( whether it be in your face or not ), may not be all that worth it if it's truly going to make ya feel sour inside.
Sorry if I'm rambling a bit. Heh, But everyone is different and at least you got to say what you needed to. Nice to also see people extending their paws and reaching out to you and sharing their stories.
Oh and for the whole fandom thing, can you really blame someone for talking about something they enjoy? It may seem like a nuisance to you, but to someone else, it's a convo starter and it can be good just finding someone else to express their love to. Yeah, it can be annoying when it's everywhere in local, but they can't help that they're enjoying themselves. We can't all be satisfied.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 12, 2017, 03:57:49 am
Pretty sure it is. I fluctuate from being active from dusk to drawn to short time spans. I've been on late at night and early in the morning. Ficho Tunnels is mainly for non-English speakers, I find, and while role players roam in there because of the lack of lag and change of scenery, they're usually doing so in groups or whisper. Most groups these days don't appeal to me, sadly. I've tried getting back into wolf packs but it's become so overly complicated, I feel, where I just want to have to fun. You can have fun with that stuff, of course, but I don't feel all that dedicated into a wolf pack to make it my life's work.
I'm willing to do so for others things because I do have a passion for a few things, like all do. But that passion is uncommonly shared and, even when I've found people who like said things I somehow find a way to scare them off.
And I try as best as I can to find the good. I have anxiety and I'm easy to bend and break. I'm very vulnerable to hostility even though I'm the hostile one half the time. And I know people see things differently since there's only a small portion of people out there who agree with what I say. But the thing is that I shouldn't have to be bothered by every waking moment. Of course there's going to be that one conversation that bothers me and I understand that people have love for certain thing. There's a right way to talk about Overwatch. And I find that it's always the same group of friends spamming it out in Local, and at times I feel it's not better than silence because advertisers get cut off and honestly, some of the things they say would make people uncomfortable. Maybe that's someone else's thing but even I know when to draw the line. If I only talked about a shipping I liked then sure, that'd be fun but I'd get bored and run out of content eventually. Local around the Grounds is a broken record, no matter if you like it or not.
Nowadays I miss the old fandoms. I liked the younger ones with their silly roleplays that never made any sense or were full of powerplay. And if that annoyed someone, they could move ten feet and find some people doing a serious and sophisticated roleplay. Mate centers in Bonfire always gave something to watch for people, as did those Lion King roleplays. There were fandoms of all types from Creepypasta to Pokemon to heck, even some animes, movies, and games. Maybe there still is that stuff in this day but God, do you have to run through the maps and find every hidden crack to dig them out.
From peaking at 1,000 down to 300 is a significant change. Sure, it's laggy as it is now but that's because people refused to spread out. I really have no idea why everyone clumped in the Grounds. The other maps are fairly easy to find. But honestly, if it starts lagging then maybe people will start moving. They're start talking in Ficho and in even in Cape, and hecc, get a group of people in Grotto for pete's sake.
And here's the thing about this perspective business. Yes, people do find the femur thing amusing and I do to. However, I change up my style every so often and try to make them laugh about something else so it's not the same thing over and over. It keeps my sanity and probably the others-- simply because I know when to stop. I call it my "go-to butt monkey" phrase and when people overuse that again and again, it becomes dry. Everyone gets sick of what they say sometimes, but I guess that maximum is very different for everyone. But I left for about three months and they were doing the same thing. Honestly, it's a bit obvious with passion turns into compulsive, addictive behavior and it's disturbing. I'm not trying to insult them, but whether you like their content or not, it's obviously repetitive. Yes, we've had fandoms crawl in and out. Five Nights at Freddy's, Sonic the Hedgehog, My Little Pony, etc. But they weren't as forceful. They'd go as a character, maybe roleplay a bit or do something weird and move on ten minutes later. The only stand still conversations were formed by people talking about just whatever topics they wanted it to be. It wasn't fandoms all the time. It could be some problems someone is having, or maybe some funny YouTuber. There was variety. I suppose I could move to Ficho and translate all the foreign languages so I can stalk their conversations instead, but why should I have to do that? A couple days of the same business is fine but all the time? Jesus. And every time I try to change the subject it falls back down.
But apparently, coming on early is when the new content rises because those people aren't around. I think new conversations pop up when Local becomes silent, and somebody says something random or does something to bring something to the table. But because these people are constantly talking over and over, it sort of shuns them down.
No idea what nej is, by the way.
It is not Overwatch that makes me angry. Of course those people have said things about it that I've never heard before and I've found it interesting or funny-- but then they kept using it over and over and you can see why it turns foul. I mean, I get sick of the people who talk about Flippy all the time, especially obnoxiously-- and he's my favorite character. But I suppose I have a lot more limits because I feel judged all of the time where they're free falling. I envy them because I wish I could be that care free-- then again I can visibly see what I'd be sacrificing.
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Hakumi on October 12, 2017, 04:46:17 am
Well, as you said, if you had an issue with it, you can just move? ( Again , not being rude ). But, 1 OOO to 3OO is a huge dip and that's with reason. Some didn't like the whole login security thing but it was for our protection and safety, while others felt that the maps didn't seem to interest them enough so they went and tried other games that offered more. At least it rose a bit because before there would only be barely 1OO people on and depending on the seasons or months, the activity would fluctuate greatly.
As for changing your style? Some do and some don't. Others don't really care for it and if it's not broken, then they're not gonna fix it. They may think it's fine and that'll be that. Everyone of course does things differently and handles things differently. Maybe you're just getting tired overall? Maybe you're trying to convince yourself to see otherwise and in the process it's just pulling you deeper and deeper into this pit that you can't really seem to crawl out of? I mean, if you're literally not finding enjoyment nej matter what? Then maybe you can find something else and just not think about the game in general.
Like it or not, this sort of thing happens in real - life nearly all the time. Someone isn't going to like something nej matter what the other person does, say, or even think. Fandoms are fandoms and, whether we enjoy some of them or not, they're here to stay from the looks of it.... Our choice what we end up doing about it. People handle it , go about it the same way but that's just how humans or anything is. They turn something good into something , dare I say, 'Bad.' And it's seen everywhere.
Bottom line is, what we get exposed to on a daily basis whether it be from a game, a community, real life, etc... and how we go about handling said exposure, is all on us. We can chose to move on and move past it ( or at least try and not worry about it ) or we can just get sucked right into it. Nej matter how you slice it, our decisions can come right away, or in the future.. either way, it was our choice and how we make of it. Whether we wanted the outcome or not. And if it's to the point where you need to just step back and try and find things that you personally enjoyed, then go for it. If you feel like Feral - Heart isn't the right place for you for the time being then by all means step away from it. Shoot, wandering around various maps and just sitting in an empty map, to just think for a bit is just as fine y'know?
I apologize in advance if my words don't make sense or seemed scattered. My thought process is ahead of my typing sometimes. And by the way, 'Nej' is just No in Swedish c':
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Krankheit on October 12, 2017, 11:15:04 am
As I've said, I've already moved from the source of it to the lake. It's much better but it's a lot more quiet. Also what I said, I tried to give this game and that section of the community a break and saw it from a different angle, but that only worked for a day.
Also as I said, I'm far too attached to Feral Heart to get up and leave. I tried to get up and leave but came back. It's something to do in my time because I don't play a lot of other games anymore. I also wished to find more internet friends, which most Impressive Title servers I play hardly offer because they're new and usually empty.
wait there was a lime green the entire time?
Title: Re: From 100 to 0 (in no time flat)
Post by: Kuri on October 17, 2017, 10:06:17 am
I actually wonder if some of the aggressive "Don't dare use local" and other odd comings & goings of people are actually trolling of people from another game whom have been convinced that they should try to disrupt this one. They only need to peel at one layer and watch the disruption flow. Like how people start 2 lies & watch the masses debate which one is true. Think about it.. all the signs are there.