So this'll be a journal for me to write my thoughts n' daily activities in. Kind of like a diary? Feel free to comment.
April 29th
Listening to - twenty one pilots: Stressed Out
Drinking - Coca Cola
Eating - Smarties
Today's one of my good friend's birthdays and guess who wasn't invited to her party? Me! I of course invited her to mine, but, I guess she can't return the favor. Ah well, I guess its just me being me.
I've been so tired in the mornings since I started taking this sleep medicine, guess its just them wearing off. Hopefully my body'll get used to it, cause its getting annoying almost passing out at my keyboard every day.
Something I've been noticing is that I've made a lot of new friends lately, which I guess is good~ Though I wish I could make some in real life. It's kinda lonely sitting in my room all day in silence. No one I know ever comes over my house or messages me or wants to hang out with me, its kinda sad, and is kinda taking a toll on me. I cried myself to sleep a few days ago thinking about it but ah, what are you gonna do? No one around my town has ever liked me so I guess that explains it.
I really wish we could just move out of this dumb little place and move somewhere completely different, far away from here so I can get a brand new start with complete strangers.
That'll never happen, though. Not enough money. We're too poor to pull off something like that.
-- RANT --
I've been asking to go to GameStop for the past month and a half so I can get Bioshock Infinite and Red Dead Redemption, and I still have yet to be driven. This isn't something to make a big deal out of but it's literally upset me to the point of crying. Like wtf? I feel so trapped in this house. My mom always yells at me for being anti-social because I never get out of the house and yet whenever I want to go somewhere I get told no because she doesn't feel like going anywhere. How the hell are you gonna expect me to go places if I can't even be driven? Not like I have a license or anything that you STILL haven't taken me out to practice for.
I'd asked again earlier today and her boyfriend decided to get into the mix. He asked what I wanted and she told him about it, and he got all angry like, "The hell we're going to GameStop, can't you see we're busy here?!"
I know that that's not at all bad but I'm a very sensitive person and can break down crying even at the tiniest raise of a voice towards me. As soon as he rose his voice at me like that I ran into the house and had actually cried over it. Again.
I honestly hate her boyfriend so much, it makes me really angry. We can't even leave, either! We're stuck here because as SOON as we moved into this stupid house with her stupid boyfriend our car decided to break, so we're stuck with one. We don't have money to afford another one, and her boyfriend decides to make her spend all of her money on groceries when he makes $700 every 2 weeks! We've been stuck here without anywhere to go for the past 2 years. We can't move into anyone's house while we get enough money to get a car and a new house because of our animals, so that's out of the question. I've actually considered moving to my Grandma's house just to get away from the guy.
He makes me so mad.
Mmph.
-Hooli
