I just realized I have another char. Ashpaw's dad, Kaiheart's mate:
Goldentail (btw for now he is a loner.)
I was wondering the forest. That's when I found one of the cat clans. I saw one kit becoming apprentice, or whatever they do. "I can't believe I waited to be come a warrior before I left those stupid clans." (Not even remembering his mate and kit.) "I'm glad I left. Their ways make no sense at all." I stood up to walk away when I noticed an unforgettable face. "Do I know that she-cat?" I saw her. All white with tan-orange patches. Suddenly it all went black. "Its all a memory." A strange voice. I opened my mouth to scream but nothing came out. Suddenly a "screen" came out and it fast forwarded my life. Being a kit, then days of an apprentice. Finally a warrior. Then when I met the white cat. We did many hunts and patrols. Finally the day she became queen. She had two kits a blue tabby and a ash colored one. I went angry and took the blue one away. I named it deadkit. For 4 moons I taught her to be hostile to the clans. Especially cloud clan. I trained her while she was a kit, forgot about the apprenticeship.finally she became a warrior known as Deadheart. I was great to her but evil to all others. I let her be free in the wild. Being a loner. A 1 and a half moons after she was made a warrior by me I was hunting to find a horrible stench. I ran to the dead cat, it was Deadheart. I sat in vigil and mourned for her. Finally I buried her body and lived my life to this moment. "Now you see." I looked around it was all black again. I looked down to see my paws. "This is what your life was. Who you were. You forced your kit's warriorhood and killed her. You betrayed your clan. NOW, don't you even THINK about going back. They will never. I mean NEVER accept you back. Especially you mate, Kaiheart." Suddenly my head was dizzy, then I woke up back hiding behind the camp. The meeting was over. I could try to go back, try and become a warrior again.
(Just to show you how his life went. And why he was never in the clan. And what really happened to Kaiheart.)