I have a classic, tell-tale memory. Perhaps one of it's kind. It's been somewhat of a trademark of mine, as well.
If you travel over to my profile's summary, you will find something rather interesting.
2011, that was 7 years ago. Seven years ago, I was 10 years old (or 11, if you want to be true to today's date!). What was a little 10 year old doing up at 3 AM, on the internet, registering an account on a website without permission!? I waited till my mother went to work at Dunkin Donuts. I had stayed up all night, plotting what my first character would be; my little brain, new to the world of embracing imagination, thought up a white wolf named Kayenette. He would be a tall, thin white wolf with yellow eyes. Nothing else. Now, let's rewind to the day before. I was browsing Youtube, like I always did, watching Animash, AMVs, and WolfQuest videos. I was on a WolfQuest walkthrough when I noticed a video that had a dinosaur-looking creature, it was a pale blue with the old pale purple spotted hyena markings. I thought that was so cool. I watched more and more videos, and then soon found the FeralHeart website. It was late and I was a child, so I went to bed to wait when my mother left for work.
Let's say it was 2 AM, I had crawled out of bed. I crawled slowly, with my belly close to the floor, my way towards my parent's bedroom to make sure my father was snoring away. The computer was loud when starting up (R.I.P Windows Vista, my favorite OS), so I often held my breath in case it would wake dad up. I had only been caught once, but I was afraid it would happen again. It didn't. Happily, I waited for the computer to start up and load. I think I used Internet Explorer, since I was honestly new at the whole internet/online community thing, only using IE for all of my online computer games (simpler time of Javascript browser games, ya know). Loaded up the FeralHeart site, created a new account. For some reason, I hadn't come up with a username prior to wanting to sign up, but still it came quick to mind. "Kastilla." No clue where it came from, but it stuck and I still use it to this day (on other sites, since I wanted to be known as a variation of Wolfie). I signed up using my mom's e-mail, that we shared since I never knew I could create my own then.
Afterward, I had downloaded the game. Made sure the volume was off, just in case there was loud music (there was lol). Once I'd logged on, I made the character I dreamed of... Kayenette, he had the "Cool Grin" default emote. I have since remade him, still keeping that old design of his, and I plan to rewrite him. I was super stoked to play the game, and once I was in, I realized how I had no clue how to move around. This game wasn't like the horse games nor WolfQuest, the arrow buttons only moved the camera! What the heck!? I clicked around, sure enough, that's how you moved. I thought I would never get used to it, so as soon as I clicked and ran across Bonfire Island, I exited the game and went back to bed. I fell asleep and woke up to hop on FeralHeart, my mother seeing the game and being passively disappointed that I downloaded a game without her permission, and made Aleu. Aleu's design and name came from Balto, but I made her look like Jenna kinda. Though, she had olive eyes, a brown tail tip (because I didn't know you could change it at that time), a scar on her tail, the old husky markings, and a thin tail. She was often called the "fire dog" because of her size and coat. No one really said, "That's Jenna though," to my surprise. So, Aleu became my main at that time and I soon deleted Kayenette because I was playing with Aleu more. Kayenette probably holds that grudge in his own coding somewhere, but I will try to knead that out.
Another memory, of a person who changed my life. Both for the good and the bad. I won't say their name, nor the character. They introduced Okami, the Ginga series, Vocaloid, the Elder Scrolls, Portal and other Valve games, and major anime to me. But, they also introduced to me guilt-tripping, depression, trust-issues, clingy behavior (on my part), pathological-lying, manipulation, Catfishing, and full-blown cyber-bullying. Never reported it because they made it seemed like it was all my fault. Our characters were married, had many children and even grandchildren. That's why I abandoned Aleu, because she made me think of that person. Though, I rewrote her and she is a wise character that cares about peace, love, and being a caregiver to all creatures. That doesn't mean she is without her faults, since well, there was a husband that was cruel to her. Needless to say, that person and I haven't been friends for over four years. Never contacted each other, and I honestly don't know where or who she is anymore. Still, that paranoia that she makes an account to attack me...
More memories about people, but this time it's mega-positive. Vespian, Teivel, and Warriorstrike. All whom intimidated me so much, whether it be for their title, personality, beautiful artwork, characters, or their attitude in the forum. Vespian and Warriorstrike were mods, but before that were helpful members. I remember when Vespian and Warriorstrike were but measly newcomers.
Vespian taught me to be proud of who I was, my writings and drawings, to hone down on those skills and be proud to be different. Even those with a not-so happy life can be kind and good-hearted people. Defending your friends like they're your family, never treading too far from the warmth and safety of your pack. Vespian and Teivel took me in as the daughter they'll never have, supporting me 100% and raising me up when I am down.
Teivel taught me to practice drawing and writing like it's your life, to escape from the stone-cold reality. That it's okay to be a little girly once in a while, to seek attention when you need it most. That a 'yote with the rickety limbs or an ice-cold Queen can be a good mom.
Warriorstrike. Warriorstrike. Warriorstrike. Nynx. Bean mama.
We have weird conversations, but good ones too. Wise. Ye' taught me it's okay to be silly at times, but also you can be quite intelligent. That it's okay to be a shy person, but when you open up and your true colors scream ya need to be wrapped in a bean blanket.
I met Vespian through the forums, when I had no computer to play FeralHeart one, I PMed her at first. Spooky time. I was incredibly shy and going through a rough time. We had some odd conversations, and soon we e-mailed each other. That's when Wolfie began to chip through that thick hide of Vespian. Wolfie squirmed her way in, and surprisingly, Vespian happily enveloped her. Whether it was for traveling through the town on Vespian's broad shoulders, or napping in the thick, redwood forest, little Wolfie followed the cryptic beast. Vespian may never know why Wolfie is spared by his cynical attitude, but he sure as Hell enjoys the little lamb's company.
I met Teivel through Vespian, of course. We both were shy. Teivel is like an uncle to little Wolfie. Teivel may think himself not worthy of Wolfie's affection, but it still happens whether he likes it or not! OOC Vespian and Teivel are parental figures to Wolfie, IC they are guardians Father and Uncle to the orphan known as Wolfie.
I met Nynx through the forums at first, but only did I talk to her in-game. Near the stone bridge in Fluorite. I was a nervous wreck, talking to her. No one was near, thus why I approached her! Wasn't very good at communication when there were more strangers (and mods, not to mention) around. We surprisingly hit it off, and I was incredibly happy. Then, we started to talk more and more, PMing each other once in a while. Soon, we added each other on Skype and then when Discord became the mainstream. All of our derpy conversations are forever fossilized on Skype AND Discord, and our own memories.
Hmm, did this accidentally become a praise thread? Oops, my bad.
