Feral Heart

I think couches are awesome but mate-beggars are just pathetic, in a comical sort of way. xD

When I'm bored, I sometimes couch just for kicks, or I sit near Stone Bridge or the edge of Bonfire and watch the randomness. Hey, it's almost like a never-ending comedy movie... -invents new form of entertainment-

Powerplayers can be funny to watch but extremely annoying if they keep following you. My friend AlphaEclipse and I were rping in Flourite and got mobbed by the most enormous pack of marshmallows (and a few powerplayers) I'd ever seen...so I'll post the screenie below if I can actually find it somewhere in the impenetrable mass of crap on my computer.

Edit: Found it!

That "FBI virus" would be awful. I didn't get that but I somehow got another virus (it was this year but I forgot exactly what it did...). I made a new administrator account, transferred most of my stuff from a flash drive to the new account, and deleted my old one. Problem solved, but pain in the butt. >:U

Some of you may know me as a map maker on here. Others may be friends of acquaintances from ingame, from other games, etc. Others may not know me or have even heard of me before. So...

First off, hi. xD

Second, I think I'm just one of those people who's just generally different. People may accept me, or (in annoying cases) not accept me, for who I am.

Third, I'm just not your average almost-fourteen-year-old.

I'll explain all that later, but here's basically a summary of me.

I'm artistic, thoughtful, athletic, funny, sometimes serious, hardworking yet lazy (once I've put in enough effort, I take the breaks I deserve and refuse to work any harder, especially at math/algebra, which I'm apparently good at but I hate it), determined, sarcastic, creative, and honestly kind of stubborn (no shame there!). I'm also an avid bookworm, computer gamer, artist, FH map maker, journal writer, photographer, and music addict. In class, if there's something I finished early or whatever, I immediately dig out a book from the mini-library that I can never be found without. Whether I'm bored, tired, in school (thankfully it's summer), I'm reading something at least half the time, be it online, on my kindle, or the irreplaceable book. I also like to derp around with friends on the internet just for lulz in Ascension Island. I'm also seriously into furry art, and I'm probably furry myself. A few more random factoids (as Sheldon puts it) about me: I bake, I cook, and I study and respect Native American culture, and I have a deep connection with nature and consider my two adorable beagles to be like a true brother and sister to me; we're inseparable.

My favorite shows include NatGeo Wild, Hetalia, Treehouse Masters, Catfish, Ridiculousness, Big Bang Theory, SnackOff, Iron Chef, Cupcake Wars, Cake Boss, Family Guy, and American Dad.

I'm also on many IT servers, including: Impressive World, Dragon's Den, Wolf Soul, Royal Skies, Auroara, and Sanctum of Eventide. I also play WolfQuest sometimes.

Aaand here's the part that takes a lot of courage for me to share, even with an awesome community and group of great friends like this. I'm trans and have been since preschool. In a nutshell, I'm a guy stuck in a girl's body. I've known this since I was a baby. Here's a few funny and not-so-funny examples (basically in order):
1. As a fetus/baby, my parents thought I was a boy, or to be more exact, didn't actually know, until I was born! xD
2. In preschool, I always said 'eew' to girl clothes.
3. In kindergarten, there was this web game called I Am Me. Without second thought, I clicked 'boy' and made a boy profile-character-thing (not sure what is was, really) and thought nothing of it. My classmates laughed at me but I didn't change it.
4. In general elementary years (which I hated most of anyway), I always felt 'different' and couldn't put my finger on it. I ran a "mud pie bakery" and an "herb soup cafe for squirrels" with other tomboys and boys. and laughed when the girls said it was gross.
5. In sixth grade, I went through a confusing phase.
6. From mid seventh grade to the present, I've come to the realization that I'm trans. Even though people tell me I'm a generally good looking person, and I have a good build, I've always been secretly unhappy with my body. I have a normal to small amount of acne. None of that matters, and I could have all the money, fame, land, (or whatever) in the world and I'd still feel incomplete. Even with all the great friends, family, and qualities I have, I will only be truly happy being recognized as a dude. So sorry if it causes confusion or offense to anyone or any friends on here, but I've dealt with enough pain. Every day I feel like I'm living a lie, stuck inside the wrong body. But even though it might be totally confusing to everyone else and maybe a bit...different/weird for me, I'll be happier by far.

On a lighter note from all that serious and kind of depressing life crap, I'll probably make a party map and post another thread somewhere to make a huge, crazy celebration once I come out to my parents about this! ^^

K byez for now! -Sits in my cozy disaster of a room and buries my nose in a book-

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http://www.yourworldoftext.com/~Chapawee/Randomness
http://www.yourworldoftext.com/~Chapawee/TextArt
http://www.yourworldoftext.com/~Chapawee/QueerTalk

Thanks, it's working again! No idea how a particle would end up in an object folder though. xD

This is the result of about three days' work, including reference pic searches, dA and FH mesh searches, careful retexturing, and staying up till 1 am! My biggest map project yet, this is the first in a series of (unconnected) maps I'm doing. This is also my first map with music, texture files, a readme file, credits, troubleshooting, and more! Screenshots and download are below.

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Rules:
> Try to stick to the general FH rules, since this is a public map.
> Absolutely NO claiming this as your own. I worked my tail off on it!
> Have fun! ^^

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Enjoy!
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