Please don't stress yourself out, Alexander, we all understand and I'll send my prayers to you and for your safe recovery. More than anything would I hope you're not scared, either, because if something happens... at least you'll be in a better place. But more than anything I can assure you you will pull through if you need the support, just whatever you do, don't be afraid. Don't let fear overwhelm you.
Stay strong, hun, I will be praying for you.~ <3