I have played this game since 2012. My account isn't that old, because this was not my first account. I chose to leave the old one due to drama, its name I will leave out, however for those of you who know me, I'll miss you terribly. I'll come onto the forum to see how things are holding up. I do so sincerely hope something is done to save this game. If not, I hope another game can take FeralHearts place in my heart. Roleplaying is something that I haven't done in years, ever since FeralHeart changed so dramatically.
Before I do go from this game, I might as well fully explain why I'm leaving.
I've seen lots of discussions on this forum, and lots of drama. I've even been a part of some of it. I have realized that this game, once one of my favorite games to play and something I always loved, has become a dull, grey tale of a fallen era. I will not apologize, because I don't feel guilt or fear for saying any of this. I'm going to be blunt. I will possibly hurt some feelings. But the truth MUST be said, and I will not hold back.
The staff of this game, while I adore some of them, there is a small minority filled with absolutely corrupt monsters. There are threads about this. It's terrifying to talk to them, or at least it would be, if I cared about being banned. I'm leaving either way, aren't I? This is a direct message to the staff of FeralHeart. A lot of you a see as friends to everyone in this game, and I see it has also exhausted you. Perhaps you also feel the same way I do, wishing things could be better for this game and yet feeling hopeless because nothing can be done. But I can't take seeing peoples threads get locked and people getting banned simply for speaking up. If someone is trying to say something's wrong, LISTEN TO THEM. A game is NEVER a dicatorship. Games are meant to be played by people, you can't completely ignore what they say about missing general chat or thinking registration should be reopened by banning them. It's just childish, and I find it very sad that some members of the staff have fallen so far. There shouldn't need to be so much drama over past events. KovuLKD, whatever he did to make him leave this game, what's done is done. You still had a great game, all you needed to do was do what you could to keep it alive. The part of being a staff member is being able to deal with people saying something you don't like. If you can't handle that, you should never be a staff member. I've seen staff members get reappointed that were once demoted that by all means did not deserve to regain that position. I've seen people come to me, pissed off and in tears because they were just banned from a game they loved for saying something they felt should be done.
Stop trying to be so in control when you should be trying to protect the community instead. If you're one of the staff members who feel that people should be treated like actual people and not immediately banned when they say something even slightly wrong, then do something about it. If it's a locked thread, or someone was banned, whatever the case, you should do something. Tell someone, tell the person you feel is in charge. If the person in charge is the problem, then try anyway.
You can tell me it's impossible to fix what has been done. If what you say is what you really feel in that case, then there truly is no hope for this game to ever be as alive as it once was. You can tell me that I don't understand how servers work, or how games work. I might not be a professional, but I've talked to people from game companies before. Servers are meant to be able to handle a world chat and thousands of people, if not MILLIONS being on at once. If you don't have enough money, that's one thing, but that's not something you've ever said that I've seen.
And now, to everyone else.
I remember when I was on my old account, and I first played this game. It was the funnest experience I've ever had. The game was unlike anything else, and when I first joined Seventh Generation(A Warrior Cats RP) I was beyond thrilled. Finally, a game that I could play as a cat and talk to other people, interact and have fun.
I joined countless roleplays after each went inactive. Every RP was better than the last, I even made some of my own. Sometimes, I made mistakes and was quite the drama queen, but I was really little, gimme a break.
Nowadays... I can't even go into the game. I physically can, but mentally, I just can't bring myself to do it. I know the old maps were awful. Fluorite was too spread out, and barren... but it didn't used to be. Ficho was an eyesore and no one really went in it... it never really was, when I was younger. Last Cave and Atlantis I enjoyed, though no one went to those maps, and I never quite understood why. The new maps that we have now I can't stand. They don't lag, and they are beautifully designed, but I can't deal with seeing all of the changes. I've played for so long with Fluorite Plains, and I've enjoyed every moment of it. All of my friends left, and then this huge update came... I was excited, at first, but now... I don't like it. The maps are too small, too cluttered. The fun of the old maps was using your imagination, these maps don't really allow that.
I miss it. The feeling of getting on FH, dealing with bad tokens all the time, and blathering to random people in general chat from day to day, with tons of people to see powerplaying in the fields of fluorite. It was fun, and literacy wasn't taken so much for granted.
All of that changed, and I don't know why. And for that reason, as much as it makes me want to cry, I have no reason to stay on this game any longer. I just can't. I've lost interest. I've made so many friends here, and I no longer have contact with any of them. They're all gone, now.
I'll see you another time, perhaps. If you want me, I'm TheReturningDemise on Revelations Online. The closed beta starts on Nov. 3rd, hopefully the game is as fun as it sounds.
Sincerely and with a heavy heart,
~Dem.
