You look like you need a break from this game, but if you had 6 months away then i dont know, i have 2 years and half playing here and sometimes the game may get boring.
I felt the same as you once, i get online and i just want to hide or to log out, i cannot tell you what to do for sure on this situation.
Probably you have a fear of getting in a undesired situation you had before, or to get in the same kind of roleplay again, try to sit and to think why you feel panic and if you really want to continue playing right now.
I ended by creating another account and to log in to be with new people and i felt better.
Feral Heart and Impressive Title are so simple as games, they get boring easily if you dont roleplay or do something, so you may tryout some new games