In life, people need to realize their mistakes which is important and that's very good. When you know what's wrong to make it right, you can be happier, it's a great start to change. But, let me tell you something, that trying to be a better person shouldn't make you feel disappointed. I think all you need is your space alone to regain what you lost, but in the bright side I still see you as a good person from just that message. Also another thing, life is too short to take in mistakes so live the life you deeply deserve.
Relax and when you need anything you have Feralheart to support you, and now, enjoy putting creativity into your writing! <3
Lots of love, Ritatalia